A Godchick's Diary

School of Disciples = Vacation with Jesus

2008-09-02T19:46:00.000-07:00

Yay back to blogging!

Last Saturday night Sarah took me, my mom, and Jasmine to eat at Savoy. Before the waitress brought us the food, Sarah talked to mom about school of disciples. That was how I finally told my mom about quitting school and joining the School of Disciples. If it wasn't for Sarah I don't know when I was going to tell my mom.

The conversation didn't go too well, Mom's face was all dark and worried. So we let the topic rest and talked about other stuff.

Yesterday afternoon Mom brought up the subject again while we were talking about my bank account. Throughout that entire conversation, God gave me such peace and confidence that I was able to calmly explain to my mom about how I need to lay down everything to follow Jesus. I didn't know until later that Sarah overheard our conversation in the restroom and was praying hard for me (haha, imagine Sarah rocking back and forth, filled with Holy Spirit, praying fervently...in the restroom. Thank you sis!).

Because of Sarah's prayer, I was able to convince Mom that I was going to join the School of Disciples no matter what. My trust in Jesus increased after that conversation. I realized that I really need to know my identity: I am first God's child, and then I am my mom's child; my obedience to God is primary, and my obedience to my mom is secondary. God helped me to answer all of my mom's tough questions with His Word:

"Then Jesus said to his disciples, "If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me.'" (Matthew16:24)

"Anyone who loves his father or mother more than me is not worthy of me; anyone who loves his son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me;and anyone who does not take his cross and follow me is not worthy of me.Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it.'" (Matthew10:37~39)

When I told my mom that joining School of Disciples will help me depend on God more, she asked me, "Why must you test your faith like this? Why do you have to put yourself in such a position without money or anything and depend on God to provide you? Why can't you just go to school, get a job when you graduate, and serve God with your money?"

I answered that Jesus actually sent His disciples out and told them not to take any money with them:

"These twelve Jesus sent out with the following instructions:...Do not take along any gold or silver or copper in your belts;take no bag for the journey, or extra tunic, or sandals or a staff; for the worker is worth his keep.'" (Matthew10:5,9,10)

We really need to lay down absolutely everything, take up our cross, and follow Jesus. I for one am really excited about School of Disciples, it's like taking a vacation with Jesus!

Public Preaching!!

2008-05-14T22:10:00.000-07:00

Monday was one crazy day.

After class I dragged my tired body to go buy some lunch, and as I walked down Ring Road I heard a young man shouting about something. As I walked closer I heard bits and pieces of "In Matthews", "Jesus", etc., and I could feel my heart racing with excitement. There he was, passionately preaching about Jesus' salvation and urging the students to repent, ignoring the weird looks people were giving him. I literally stood there, frozen, listening to him preach, silently praying for God to open these students' ears and hearts.

I wanted to go up to him, but two police officers came and made him move to another area. When the officers left I immediately went up to him to talk to him. His name was Chris and he introduced me to his pastor Michael, the pastor's wife Tamika, their friends JK and Evangelista. I found out that they have traveled to about seventy different campuses to preach. As I continued to talk with them, Michael asked me if I wanted to preach as well. I said yes so he told me that I could go after JK is done.

We watched and prayed for JK as he preached boldly the Word of God, then it was my turn. Michael prayed for me and told me to go to the open space. He came with me and he started to ask me questions loudly pretending that he is an nonbeliever, and I would answer back with an equally loud voice. Michael led me to preach about what salvation means, why only Jesus can save, why "good" people will go to hell with all the "bad" people, etc. Then he left me and I followed the Holy Spirit's lead to preach boldly about Jesus' return and how students need salvation. I saw some of my friends walking past and frowning at me, but I didn't care.

After I was done, a girl came up to me to ask me what I was doing, I shared with her and it turned out that she's also a believer. She came to UCI with some of her church members from In Christ Alone to witness to students and she invited me to join her sometimes. So we exchanged info before she left.

Then I tagged along with Michael's group as they moved to the Student Center to preach some more. While Evangelista preached, Michael and I started to talk about committing to living a life free from sin. We sat there for about two hours, digging into the Word of God. I was so encouraged by Michael and Tamika, two people so devoted to Christ in holiness and godliness. The scriptures that I've read before took on new meaning and became alive.

Before I left, Michael gave me their business card and I gave them my email, and Michael prayed for me so I'll keep on sharing about God in school.

Jesus thank You! Bless Michale, Tamika, JK, Chris, and Evangelista as they continue to preach the good news everywhere they go. Lord provide them and protect them.

More Jesus!! I want more!! Set my heart on fire for You and give me boldness!! Lord my school needs more of Your presence, won't You come and set Your people free from oppression!! Jesus come and guide Your people!! Jesus come!!

"Can I Pray For You?" UCI Edition!!

2008-04-28T15:04:00.000-07:00

Quote of The Day:
"I've noticed that everybody that is for abortion has already been born." (Ronald Reagan, New York Times, 22 September 1980)
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Today after class I began to pray walk the school, and I saw this guy with bandages on his ankle.

So I went up to him and his friend and asked whether I could pray for him, but he told me that he needed to go to class and hurriedly walked away. His name is Charles, God please give him a miracle and heal his ankle!!

After a wonderful devotion time with Jesus, I got out my "Can I pray for you? God answers prayers" poster and walked to Ring Road, where hundreds of students pass by every day to go to class, get Starbucks, buy books, hang out, and set up booths for clubs.

On my way I saw a guy using crutches and had bandages on his left leg, so I asked him if I could pray for him. But he muttered something and quickly went past me; his friend turned around and said sorry (haha, sorry for what??). In Jesus' Name, Heavenly Father I ask that You would bring miraculous healing upon him! Amen.

I found a spot among all the club booths and held up the sign, and smiled real big (thanks for the tip Johnny! ) . Whenever anyone looked instead of just ignoring, I asked if I could pray for them.

I saw this guy looking at the poster and smiling, when he came back the second time, he walked up to me and we started to talk.

His name is Louis and he just became a Christian about two years ago (praise God!), his mom has been praying for him his entire life, and he finally encountered Jesus and became crazy passionate for Him. Louis said that God always send him someone when he is feeling down, last time he was eating in the cafeteria and he accidentally spilled his drink, embarrassed, he moved to another table, and there was a guy reading the Bible! Right now Louis is reading the Bible with commentaries found online. I was so excited as I prayed for him, then he left to catch the bus.

Then I saw Katie from Intervarsity (a Christian club) and she asked me to pray for her headache, I did and she got better. She also asked me to pray for her family because someone passed away. We encouraged each other before she left.

I was kinda dizzy from the heat but I didn't want to stand in the shadows so I prayed and a cloud came to block the sun!! Thank You Jesus, You are my cloud by day!

Then a guy walked by me and I asked if I could pray for him. I found out that he was also from Intervarsity and we talked and I prayed for him.

Later on a Muslim guy walked up to me to ask what I meant by the poster. "I'm just praying for God to bless people and for whatever else they needed, " I said. "Oh, " He said and told me that he thought I meant that people need to pray through me to talk to God. Enran, that's his name, said that people should pray directly to God and not through someone else. So I offered to pray for him and he asked me to pray for his studies. I did and he left afterwards.

Lots of people gave me prayer requests but said that they didn't have time for me to pray for them right then and there, here are some of the requests:

Patrick (the guy who said sorry to me earlier): his mother is going through hard times
Evan: his grandpa has been having frequent seizures
Brittany: her boyfriend's mom is being checked for cervical cancer
Brandon and Ana: they graduated and need to find jobs

Some people gave me weird looks, some shook their heads, but most people smiled back and said thanks.

A group of touring students went past me and a girl shouted at me, "I'll pray for you too!".

It was really exciting, God You are awesome, but I wish I could get a chance to talk to more nonbelievers. Jesus I want to see a hundred students get saved this quarter, please give me a team of nine other radical Christ followers who want to see UCI being transformed by You!

Some random stuff:

I put my food in the refrigerator in the hall kitchen and someone stole my soy milk, wholewheat bread, strawberries, cheese, ham, and an apple!! (this is one healthy thief lol !!). Ok, lesson learned, I won't put anymore food there!

Praise the Lord! I got a B on my Biology midterm!!!! Amazing!!

Homeless Shelter Visit

2008-04-22T19:21:00.000-07:00

This morning after class I pray walked my campus, and I felt so excited because I knew that I was doing what God wanted me to do. Jesus come and invade my school!!

I still didn't find another person to fast and pray for UCI with me, but before that happens, it's just me and God (which is awesome anyways).

In the evening I went on another visit to a homeless shelter with Intervarsity. This time there was David, Jessica, Henry, Waily, me, and another guy. We went to a shelter called "Catholic Worker", the owner originally just had a few people come to eat dinner with him, but they stayed there and soon he just remodeled his house and opened it as a shelter.

There were flies everywhere, the house smelled of fresh paint, and a crowd was gathering in the yard. We played with the kids, served dinner, and got to know a lot of the people.

Waily talked to a lady who was fired from her job and became unemployed. He encouraged her and prayed for her.

Henry asked the kids who their best friends were, and when he shared who his best friend was, he got to tell them about Jesus.

I was serving dinner when I overheard someone complaining about leg pain. I immediately turned around and asked the lady what happened to her leg. Monka, the lady, told me that her legs started to swell a few days ago and it was so painful that she could no longer walk. So I asked if I could pray for her, she said yes and asked me to also pray for her to get a job so she could support her husband and daughter. I prayed, and even though she didn't get healed immediately, we started to talk. Monka had been abused by her mother when she was young, then she became an orphan after both her parents died, and she was abused in the orphanage. She used to be filled with anger and would pick a fight with anyone, but when she started to go to church and counseling, her bitterness subsided. Though she's going through so much pain in life, she always encourages her family that God is good and He will help them.

Oh Jesus, there are so many people who are suffering, who need love. My $20 and volunteer work can only do so much, Jesus You are the One they need! God give me more chances to share Your love with these people.

Blog Before Bed...

2008-04-18T01:54:00.000-07:00

WOW, it's been FOREVER since I last blogged...

I just read through everyone's posts and was so excited with what God's doing in everyone's lives...

The Lord is also doing amazing things to me, after the retreat, my devotions became so different, so much sweeter. Instead of singing, I was worshiping from the heart, instead of monologuing, I was prophesying and declaring what I was praying about. God is wonderful...when I spend time with Him I'm simply putting everything away, dropping all other thoughts and just listen to Him, and He has a lot to say.

God also helped me to manage my time and actually finish my homework and studies on time, wow, that's totally supernatural and miraculous, seriously. Jesus is awesome, He isn't just in church or when I do city invasions, He's in my dorm, in my classroom, in my study hall, in my friend's dorm...He is in every part of my life, my everything.

So how was the conference tonight everyone? I'll be there tomorrow afternoon!!! Can't wait!!!!!

Learning To Let Go

2008-04-01T16:31:00.000-07:00

Jesus gave me a big lollipop.

It was swirly, sparkling pink, shiny, and perfect.

I was soaking in His presence during Sunday worship, and I saw Jesus, with lots of light behind Him, handing me this sweet gift.

I felt Him saying to me, "I love you so much, you are my beloved treasure, and I want to lavish you with gifts" Oh Jesus thank You! You are not a stingy God, You are a Heavenly Father who loves without holding back and pours down good things upon Your children. My heart was so moved by His love, so blown away by His grace; tears started falling down my cheeks (great, I'm crying again, Lord when will you let me experience holy laughter? ;p)

Ever since I got prophesied by the kids at Bethel Church, I've been experiencing God's love and affections for me on a new level. I realized that God doesn't just love us, He cherishes us, and He doesn't just give us the things we need, He also gives us gifts to make us happy!...God wants me to be happy? No way! I thought He just wants me to suffer, to learn from persecutions, and to receive occasional peace. That is not true, our God loves us and wants to fill our hearts with joy. Praise You Jesus!

I also learned at Bethel Church to let God take control. Funny, I thought I've always let God take control: "God I put my biology test into Your hands...please let me get no lower than a B!", "God I give this day to You...here's a list of things I want You to do for me!", "God I give today's 7-11 meeting to You...please show up during worship, prayer, and oh, help me with my sharing!" But the Lord gently showed me that I've only trusted Him with my words and not my heart or actions.

So I let God take control during 7-11 meeting, I let God do whatever He wants with me during Sunday worship, I let Jesus tell me what to do this Monday morning, and I gave Jesus full lordship over my heart and my life.

On Monday morning, I asked God, "Lord what do You want me to do today?". "Pray for ten people and tell them I love them" He said. So I obeyed and His love and joy filled me. In the afternoon, I found out that my friend Cindy lost her room key somewhere on her way back from the bookstore. So I prayed and went to look for it with her. Amazingly, I found in on the ground on Ring Road where hundreds of students were walking around! It was really fortunate that no one picked it up or stepped on it and damaged it! I was shouting hallelujah and we jumped up and down in joy. Cindy told me that she was praying too when we were looking for the key. During lunch, I shared with her how God returned Bill's lost knife to him, and other miracles and divine healings at Redding.

Cool things happen when we step aside and let God take over. I also realized that by giving God full control, I can see visions and hear God's voice much easier now.

Jesus, I'm all Yours!

Crying Out At Pasadena's Abortion Clinic

2008-03-24T16:14:00.000-07:00

God is so good.

Remember Shin encouraged us to go pray and pass out flyers at an abortion clinic? Well we found this Planned Parenthood thingy in Pasadena. Basically they do counseling for parents, people who are becoming parents; they have abortion services; they are advocating pro-choice.

So this morning, after my driving test (praise the Lord I paaassed!), I went to join John and Sarah who were already there. Apparently people from the clinic made them leave so they had to move to the bus stop (which was right in front of the clinic anyways, plus it has shade and benches).

So we had two big signs: “God Loves You and Your Baby” and “Inside You Is A Miracle of Life”, we put red tape with the word “LIFE” written in black on our mouths, and we prayed.

Then we saw a young girl walking towards the clinic entrance, Sarah immediately torn off her tape (ouch!) and walked to her. This girl found out she was pregnant and wanted an abortion, but after Sarah talked to her and prayed for her, she decided not to abort her baby and left! HALLELUJAH GOD SAVED A LIFE!!!!!! And soon Shin joined us, put on the tape, and held up the sign (she’s amazing, she stood there in the blazing sun for soo long and never sat down! Oh, and she made dozens of awesome flyers for us to pass out!).

As we continued to pray, and I saw a girl wearing a black tank top about to cross the streets (ok, here’s the thing, Johnny has the LIFE tape over his mouth right? And he would spot these people before we do and he would poke one of us and point to that person so we can pray for her XD). I went to her and said, “Hi, I just wanna tell you that God loves you and God bless you. Is there anything I can pray for you about?” She told me to pray for her “problems”, and for her son. I was like wow because she’s my age! Her name is Eennie and her baby son’s name is Ezekiel. Currently Eennie is working but she would like to go back to school again. So I prayed for her, I praised God for the courageous she made to keep the baby, and I blessed this little family.

Then we split up to two groups: John and Shin stayed on one side, Sarah and I went across the street. Eennie was there waiting for the bus, so I went up to her again. I told her what we were doing, and asked her how she decided not to abort. “It was hard,” she said, “When I found out at 17 that I was pregnant, I panicked, I didn’t know what to do, what to think, or even what to feel. I was especially worried about what my mom’s gonna think of me. Abortion was one of my options. But my baby was already 3 months old, he has hands, legs, eyes, everything, and I just couldn’t do it. So I kept the baby, and I’ve never being so happy…he’s so smart, and so cute! And my mom accepted him and took care of him when I go to work. His dad comes once a week to spend time with him, and every time the dad comes to take him away, I would feel so lonely. I loved my son!” Oh God praise You! I gave her my number and told her to call me anytime to needs encouragement, prayer, or anything. As we talked, another lady walked up to us. Her name was Olivia and she works across from the clinic; she said that she was very encouraged by what we are doing because she has been praying for the clinic (Praise God!!). I found out from her that Planned Parenthood came out of no where and hasn’t been there for very long. Lord let Your kingdom fall in this place and end abortion!

We kept praying and waving our signs when all of sudden Johnny started to preach! He shouted at the top of his voice, proclaiming God’s love and declaring that all lives are valuable. He told every car that passes “God loves you, my friend!”, he shouted about the millions of lives lost, about how “Terrorism can never end, but abortion can!”, and he even walked to the middle of the intersection during a red light to preach to the cars waiting for the green light!!!! Sarah and I were just like omg and were so encouraged.

Lots of cars honked at us, gave us thumbs ups, a couple people stopped to encourage us, and some gave us the finger, cussed at us, and this one lady shouted at John about how instead of doing this we should be “helping those who really need help, like going to Iraq”….yea, but strangely, no matter how they opposed us, I didn’t feel discouraged. Usually I would feel pretty bad when people criticize me, but today, even when a man yelled “F*** You!” at me, I didn’t care! It’s like God’s put a protection around me and I just wanted to share His love with them! Sarah said that she felt that way, too!

When Sarah yelled out “God loves you!”, I started yelling too! I wanted to let these people know that God loves them, loves every one He created, and that abortion breaks His heart. Even when John and Sarah left, and it was just Shin and me, I wasn’t scared to preach during red lights, to proclaim the truth about abortion and God’s love. Wow, Go GOD!

Then Jasmine joined us and she passed out a bunch of fliers to people entering and leaving the clinic. Soon Sarah came back, along with her entire crew from UCR: Ruth, Bryan, and Karen. We all prayed, cried out, and Sarah started preaching (it was amazing, there was power in her words, and she wasn’t afraid to tell people straight to their faces that abortion is WRONG). The Holy Spirit was moving among us.

Then we prayed for an old couple, Stephanie and Porqui. After we prayed for them, Stephanie’s left wrist, which was smashed and broken at many places, stopped hurting! She was like, “…It doesn’t hurt anymore!!” PRAISE THE LORD!!

Finally we joined hands in prayer. I left with Sarah and her friends, and Jasmine and Shin stayed. It was already 3 in the afternoon, we’ve been there for 4 hours.

So many other things happened, and my heart is still pounding fast in excitement.

GOD YOU ARE GOOD!!!

This is just the beginning.

Meet The Family ^0^

2008-03-20T12:19:00.000-07:00

Visit To Santa Ana Homeless Shelter

2008-03-18T20:50:00.000-07:00

Today I went with Intervarsity to serve at Santa Ana Homeless Shelter.

So I prayed about it this morning, "Jesus!! Please show up at the shelter tonight! God what they need the most isn't food, it's love and salvation from You! Jesus let Your Holy Spirit fill up that place! Lord if we just smile and hand them blankets and food, then what's the difference between us and other volunteers? What's the difference if we don't share Your eternal life, Your hope, love, and salvation with Them? God let Your mighty hand move today!"

At 4:15pm, I met up with Michael (my small group leader), Natalie (a senior), and Katie (a sophomore). We talked alot on our way there, Natalie shared how Intervarsity helped her to be more personal with God, how her brother went on China mission trips, etc., and I shared Impact's mission statement, my own conviction to evangelize more, what city invasions are, how Jack always tells us that we need to cry out for this generation, etc.

When we finally arrived, I saw the group of homeless people with their carts loaded with stuff, their weary faces, and I became nervous. Ok, this is it God. I prayed silently. Don't let this night slip by without miracles, without the outpour of Your love among them!

So we signed in and made name tags; on mine I wrote: "Hi I'm Alice. God Loves You " with a big smiley face, and I slapped it right on my jacket.

Our first task was distributing blankets. As the people came in, they get checked and scanned by guards, they show their ID, sign in, get a ticket, and use the ticket to obtain blankets. I smile real big and greeted the people with "Hello sir, hello ma'am, here you go, God bless you!", most of them said thank you and left with the blankets. Some simply snatched the blankets without a word, some complained that the blankets were too tacky, some were angry that there were no towels left (there were only 25 towels for men and 25 towels for women to shower). One man made fun of my name tag, chanting in a sing song voice, "I'm Alice. God loves you, oh I'm so happy", I didn't know how to respond and my partner actually burst out laughing. Ha, real funny.

Then a big African American woman came towards us, her face down cast, with one hand holding on to her right cheek, and one holding out the ticket. I gave her a blanket and asked, "What's wrong? Are you ok?" She replied that her teeth hurts really bad, so I asked whether I could pray for her. She simply said "Yeah let me get settled down first" and walked away.

After a while I saw her sitting down against the wall on a mat, holding her cheek, her stuff all around her, and her spirited son running around. When there wasn't so many people, I went to her and asked her, "Hey, how are you feeling? Your teeth still hurt?" she said yeah and that she was exhausted, that she didn't sleep for two nights, and that she went to the emergency room last night, but they didn't do anything to treat her, they just gave her some medicine. "Can I pray for you?" I asked again, "God can heal you. You know, a friend of mine once prayed for a guy without knuckles and the knuckles grew back right on the spot! Another time, a guy with a cast and crutches were prayed for and he got completely healed!" She replied that she believes that God heals and that she's a Christian. So I put my hand on Felicia's (her name) shoulder and commanded the pain to leave, for God's kingdom to come upon her, for God's love and peace to fill her and let her know that He'll provide for her. Then I asked how she felt. She said that it feels better now, but the pain wasn't completely gone. So I prayed for her again, and I asked her did she feel something when I prayed. She said "Yeah, I can feel the pain lifting away both times you prayed for me." PRAISE THE LORD!! I offered to pray for her again, but she wanted to get food first. So I went to get food for her and her kids.

By now the gym was filled with people. There were families, couples, old man and woman, some nicely dressed, some wearing rags; lots of people were crippled and limped around; there were really young kids, barely ten, running around, laughing, playing. There was a kid named Joey, such a sweet boy, with large eyes and a bright smile; he ran to us and happily announced, "I'm gonna be nine this April!" As I looked at the sea of people, my heart broke and I fought to keep the tears back. Oh God, they need You! They need love! They need someone that cares!

As I helped out at the food line, I greeted each person warmly, they all gratefully accepted the food and thanked everyone, some people stared at my name tag and this tall man told me, "God loves you, too Alice. You know that?" I got to know some people, and they talked about their lives.

After everyone's fed, I wandered to where some people were watching a basketball game on TV. Then I asked this elderly man besides me, "so which team do you like?" The man smiled at me, he had such kind eyes, and we started to chat.

His name was David and he used to play all kinds of sports: basketball, baseball, football, and he won fourth place in a big tournament, then he got sick. "I was diagnosed with lymph node cancer two days before my 50th birthday, what a gift," he chuckled dryly. David was in the final stages and had suffered countless chemo therapies that made him lost his taste buds, made his body age faster, though now he is in remission and feels a lot better. I offered to pray for him and told him that God can heal and shared some testimonies of divine healing. "Oh I pray," David replied, "I pray alot, I don't kneel down, I don't say it out loud, but I pray" Then he fished out a small, wrinkled piece of paper from his wallet and showed it to me, "I've carried that around for years now". On the piece of paper were Bible verses: "So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." (Isaiah41:10)...

I read the verses out loud, then David explained how God has helped him, and his eyes welled up with tears. " Can I give you a hug? " I asked, "Sure" David said. So I hugged this fragile man and prayed for him while still holding him, and we said amen together. I told him God is going to heal him, and he said he believes that too. I offered to bring the Intervarsity people over and pray for him, but he really didn't want to.

It was time to leave, we said goodbye and some people told us to come back soon.

God watch over Felicia and her children, watch over little Joey and his brother, watch over Mario, watch over Peter, watch over Tony, and watch over David.

Lord thank You for this night! Thank You for opening my eyes to see that there are so many people who needs love, and that I've been so richly blessed.

His Kingdom is HERE and NOW!!

2008-03-17T17:27:00.000-07:00

After School Fun - Feb 23

This is what we heard from Richard...

Nate and I had a blast last Thursday (January 24th) after school at the high school. Nate's been going pretty much every week for a while, so I wanted to join in the fun. We like to go and hang out with the kids after school and do prophetic and power evangelism.

Last time I went we met a guy who'd been hooked on pain killers because of acute back pain. He'd told us if he stopped taking the pain killers he felt terrible, and his back would hurt too much. So he had to take them every single day, it was basically an addiction. He let us pray for him, and we prayed in Jesus name for his back to be healed, and for the addiction to be broken. When we met him this time, he told us: "Since you prayed for me 2 weeks ago I haven't taken a single pain killer, and my back is healed!". That was a good start, so we praised God and pressed on.

Then we chatted to a group of kids, and started praying for them prophetically. Two were backslidden Christians and one was a wiccan. One of the girls said she had knee pain: Her knee were damaged during a game of baseball a year ago, and the pain was constant ever since. She said the pain was about 5/10. We prayed for her in Jesus name.. But nothing happened, which made some kids laugh. But that's OK.... So we prayed again. This time we felt the presence of God very strongly. She said "that's weird.. it doesn't hurt as much." I asked her if we could pray one more time. This time there was tons of heat on her knee (weird for a cold January day). We commanded the knee to come into alignment with Heaven, and prayed "in Jesus name be healed". Then she flexed her knee: "Oh my gosh... It's totally better. It doesn't hurt at all. Wow!!!" That opened up an amazing opportunity to share Christ with her wiccan friend.

Next we went and stood near one of the exits to the school. A couple of kids let us prophesy over them, which drew a crowd. Then a guy came out of the school on crutches. He'd sprained his knee and it was swollen. Nate started praying for him. One kid shouted "that's not real", but then the kid on crutches felt his knee: "I'm afraid so guys! It's totally better". He then handed me his crutches, rolled up his trouser leg, and took off his knee bandage: No swelling. Nate told him to jump. He started jumping around outside the school. The kids went nuts. We just kept saying "God is real. Jesus is alive, and he loves healing people. He's the same yesterday, today and forever."

That caused a Jewish teenager to come over to us. He said "I am Jewish and I don't believe in Jesus. But I have tendonitis in my elbow, and it really hurts. If you heal my elbow in Jesus' name then I'll believe in him." So Nate lay hands on his elbow and started praying. After a couple of minutes Nate said "Now stretch out your arm". The guy did so... Felt his elbow... Looked at Nate... Then looked back at his elbow.... Then shouted "Ahh!!!!!" And simply ran away down the street. He was pretty shaken up when he realised he was healed. Nate is still hunting for him to make sure he follows up on his promise!
There were two other healings that afternoon. Right there in front of the school exit, with kids watching from the school bus windows. Five healings in one hour. Every person we prayed for.

The Kingdom of God is here and now!

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

The above sharing came from Jesus Culture's testimony page, totally recommend everyone to check out the awesome things God is doing right now everywhere in America!!

God let Your presence fall on my campus!! Use me to shine the light! Let the Holy Spirit move and perform signs, wonders, divine healings, and prophecies!!

Time To Chill and Be Still

2008-03-13T23:27:00.000-07:00

Tonight I went to check out a Christian club called Intervarsity.

When I walked in, there were about 40 people, seated comfortably, listening to a young man sharing about the goodness of God. Shortly after we started to worship; we sang "God of Light", "How Great is Our God", etc. It was awesome, God's glorious presence was so gentle and moving in that little room.

Then a beautiful lady named Megan started to share about the importance of resting in God.

In today's fast paced society, people often work themselves to death from dawn to dusk, and even late at night they refused to sleep and buried themselves in technology.

Many Christians are like that too, so why do we refuse to rest from working and simply quiet down before the Lord? Well...

1. We find our identity from our accomplishments (eg., I'm a straight A student, a successful missionary, a wealthy businessman, etc.)

2. We value our work more than our health (eg., even with a severe headache and high fever, I still force myself to do that extra credit assignment)

3. We simply don't trust God to provide for us or we are unwilling to give Him the control in our lives

4. We are trying to avoid God for fear of what He'll tell us or reveal to us about ourselves when we listen to Him

We NEED to rest! Even God rested on the seventh day after creation, who are we to say that we don't need rest?

God helped His people to take breaks:

1. In the wilderness, God gave mana (a food from heaven) to the Israelites everyday except the seventh day(cool!). On the sixth day, God would pour down a double amount of mana so His people can rest from collecting the mana on the seventh day(even cooler!).

2. God commanded us to rest on Sundays, and to use that day to simply fellowship with Him.

3. The Israelites would take a whole year off, not doing any farming, any kind of work, every fifty years. It was called the Year of Jubilee. (Hey...I want that!!)

When we rest, stop the things that we're doing, and be still before God, we would realize that we need God, that we are weak, and that would make us humble (good!). We would also realize that God loves us not for the things we do, but for who we are.

When we are before the Lord, all our identities melt away, we are no longer pastor's kids, worship leaders, etc., instead we are simply God's children, His precious beloved ones.

Yes, God called us to serve, to love people, to be productive, but that's not what makes Him love us.

When Jesus got baptized, the Holy Spirit descended upon Him and Father God said, "This is my beloved son, with whom I am well pleased." God told Jesus that He loved Him and is pleased with Him even before Jesus really did anything yet!

We need to trust in God and rest in Him, He is not a God who tells us "toughen up, will you?!" when we are exhausted; no, He is a God who tells us "Let all who are tired and weary come to me, and they will find rest in me."

AMEN!!!

It was a really great first meeting, I look forward to the small group gatherings!

God is SO Good!!!

Living The Word

2008-03-10T23:59:00.000-07:00

Ok, here's something I'm gonna try: I'm going to take a verse from the Bible, find out at least five ways of applying it to my life, and apply the verse using a different way every day from Monday to Friday!

And the verse of the week is...*drum roll*:

"For, 'Everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.'" (Romans10:13)

And for Monday I'm applying this verse in my life by:

Calling out to Jesus out loud or in my head whenever I feel temptation, whenever I want to procrastinate, whenever I don't want to do devotion, etc.

So today I woke up starving and I wanted to eat breakfast, but I realized that I needed to spend time with God first and give this day to Him. I was struggling, so I cried out to Jesus for strength and I was able to put God first and food second.

At 10:30am I went online to register for Spring Quarter's classes, many classes have been filled already, so I prayed for God to please please let me be able to get into my bio37 class, and I did! Right after I enrolled the class became full.

In the afternoon, I hurried to turn in my housing contract before class and I saw this girl sitting by herself. She had a cast on one foot and had crutches. My heart pounded as I approached, "I'm in a hurry God! I can't do this now!" I thought, but I called upon the Lord to take away my fear and I went up to her. The girl accepted my prayer and told me that she had surgery on her foot and the doctor says it would take six weeks for it to heal, so I commanded in Jesus' name for it to heal. We don't know if she's healed because her foot is in a cast, but praise the Lord of miracles!

Tomorrow I'll use another way to live out Romans10:13, can't wait!

______________________________________________________________________________________

"For, 'Everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.' How, then, can they call on the one they have not believed in? And how can they hear without someone preaching to them?...As it is written, 'How beautiful are the feet of those who bring good news!'" (Romans 10: 13~15)

It's time to shine for Jesus! There are people out there who want to be saved, who want to live differently, who want love, who want to find the purpose in life, but don't know how. So let's bring the good news everywhere we go!

I'm Totally Going To Try This!!!!

2008-03-07T01:36:00.000-08:00

Cool Encounter!!!

2008-03-03T18:09:00.000-08:00

On Saturday morning, I started to pray for the city invasion I was going to do that afternoon.

At first I was just praying for the invasion, then I started to pray for more people to get saved in general, and then I found myself praying for my uncle's salvation.

All of a sudden, I heard this voice inside of me, it was a man's voice, full of power, passion, and authority:

"...And now I finally realize, that it's the Father's heart that burns our hearts, that it's the Father's fire, that sets us on fire...and by this we know that we are Yours Lord, we are Yours, because it is Your heart that burns our hearts...and I say let the gates of Heaven open up! OPEN UP I say... and let the Father's love fall down...come on, are you ready?!!...it's not about me or you, today...it's about JESUS...and HIS LOVE for the LOST, HIS HEALING for the SICK...so come on Jesus! Let Your fire fall down from Heaven we pray, LET THE FATHER'S LOVE POUR DOWN...!"

Those words just came, like someone praying, shouting, declaring inside me...I felt like I'm at a conference, with thousands of people worshiping and shouting out to God, the voice was like someone leading the worship; it sounded like Paul when he said:

"For Christ's love compels us..." (2 Corinthians5:14)

I was also singing songs like Gift of God, Majesty, Your Grace Is Enough,etc, and during intervals, just like during a conference worship, the voice prayed, shouted, declared, and led, I felt like I was one of the cheering, worshiping crowd, but I also felt like I was the one praying and leading the worship. I was dancing and worshiping like crazy, so filled with God's joy and love!

I've never experienced anything like this! This is so cool! The voice just came out of no where and gave me the words to pray with! God You're AWESOME!! Hallelujah!

Then in the afternoon, I went with mom to WholeFood Market, as she shopped, I wandered around and prayed for a lady. I was kind of disappointed that I only prayed for one person, but that doesn't matter, what matters is that God blessed and showed His love to that lady...Thank You LORD!!

"They will tell of the power of Your awesome works, and I will proclaim Your great deeds. They will celebrate Your abundant goodness and joyfully sing of Your righteousness." (Psalms145:6~7)

Would You Improv For God?

2008-02-28T22:19:00.000-08:00

Are you one of the 5 Million + viewers who have checked out the 'Frozen Grand Central Station' You Tube video?

If you have seen it, you probably had some of the same reactions as I did. It's both fascinating and freaky weird as you see 200 improv actors simultaneously freeze in place at one of the busiest places on planet earth. They are 'frozen' in mid-step, picking up papers, and all of them have obviously been trained well to stay as motionless as possible.

I'm sure the stunt brought mixed reviews. You could see that some were annoyed (i.e., those with little to no sense of humor) - and others were probably convinced the aliens had finally landed and commenced with their global body snatching plan (i.e., those with way too much free time).

Would you ever do something like that? I think I might enjoy being part of a harmless public stunt - except of course in Grand Central Station, where I'm pretty sure you'd get your wallet or purse stolen if you froze for even 5 seconds.

It seems to me that most people just go about the daily grind with little outside thought until something creative and radical happens. It also seems to me that this is true in a spiritual sense with your friends who don't know Christ as well. Sure, maybe you've had a few 'talks' about God, but after a while it gets in a rut, and you never seem to get beyond a certain point - right?

Ah - but this video gives me an idea that just might help you in this area. No, freezing in place in a crowded public area is not what I had in mind, but doing something creative and radical for God publicly in front of your friends is one of the best 'rut killers' around. For most people these days, the God talk tends to remain just that...talk...that is until it's backed up with radical action.

And it's not like this is a new plan or anything. It's actually one of the primary strategies that people in the Bible have used for centuries. Here's a short list:

Noah - built a gihugical boat. How is that radical? Well, since it had probably never rained or flooded before, the entire population of the world thought Noah was one French fry short of a Happy Meal. But aren't you glad he went ahead with his public project? Yep, he saved civilization.

Joseph - dared to tell the Pharaoh of Egypt that he could interpret dreams. If he blew it, he'd be toast inside a few seconds. But he went ahead with the triple dog dare, and - oh yes, saved civilization.

Daniel - threw open the shutters of his home and prayed to the God that was despised by the all his neighbors - even though it could bring him the death penalty. And it did. Only instead of death, he gained some new furry friends in the lion's den.

I could go on and on - but do you know who completed the most radical and life changing public act of all time? You guessed it - God Himself. He was so desperate and crazy in love with the people of planet earth that He came down here wrapped in flesh. He lived a perfect public (and private) life, led a miraculous public ministry (can you say feeding 5000 folks from 5 loaves of bread and two sardines?), and of course, He died one of the most cruel - and public- deaths that you could ever imagine. Oh yeah, then He came back from the grave and appeared in public to over 500 people in 40 days.

Talk about a radical and creative way to get people's attention for God!

And it worked. Now it's your turn. Auction off your iPod to give money to the poor, skip a movie and volunteer at a homeless shelter. Start a public blog that does nothing but investigate the claims of Jesus. Pass out pro-life flyers near an abortion clinic. Use your imagination - but keep it completely motivated by this message:

For God loved the world so much that he gave his one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life. (John 3:16)

Freezing in Grand Central Station is cool - but even cooler would be to do something that caught the attention of people around you and turned it - not to You Tube...but to the God who wants an eternal relationship with them.

Head: What you need to know about this truth

People who don't have a relationship with God through Jesus Christ need to see radical and creative evidence of vital and authentic Christianity.

Heart: What you need to feel about this truth

Simple question: If you were put on trial for being a Christian, would there be enough physical evidence to convict you? If not - perhaps it's time for a heart check and a lifestyle shift.

Hands: What you need to do about this truth

Write down a few ideas you have about radical and creative ways to show the world that you are a Christian, then get together with your youth leader and youth group to discuss how you could put those ideas into action.
_____________________________________

The above article came from www.dare2share.org

Fools For God's Kingdom

2008-02-27T21:35:00.000-08:00

Yesterday afternoon I prayed before I went on campus invasion.

I saw a vision of myself tossing fistfuls of heart-shaped seeds into the soil here and there. Then gigantic trees, enormous flowers, and other exotic plants started to sprout from the ground with astonishing speed, turning the barren land into an abundant garden.

A garden of God's love.

I was so excited.

And so I left my dorm and walked towards the main campus. Before I even left the residential area I met my friend Mary.

"Hey Alice, going to class?" she asked
"No...um...just, taking a walk" I answered

So Mary decided to come along. I didn't have the courage to tell her I was on a mission to pray for strangers. She would think I'm a religious nut, a freak! I thought to myself.

We went to Starbucks, got drinks, then went on a walk at Mesa Court (a really nice residential place with lots of artsy stuff, picnic areas, etc.)

Wait, what are you doing Alice? You're suppose to do campus invasion!...Never mind, then at least use this time to share your testimony with Mary!

But in the end, after all the internal struggle, I didn't share anything about Jesus or how He changed my life to Mary.

Afterwards, exhausted and frustrated, I sat down in my room and remembered what Jaeson Ma said during the Supernatural On Campus Conference:

"The Lord gave me the words, 'Killed In Action'. He killed my reputation, pride, and desire to be respected by Christians on that campus...We have no reputation when we go out to evangelize, we are fools for God's kingdom!"

Lord please forgive my pride, once again I forgot that I was supposed to carry my cross and follow You at all costs (even if it meant having Mary think I'm weird or being rejected by strangers)

God! Love means giving without holding back! Jesus Your love was so strong that no amount of suffering could stop You! Lord please help me to love like You do!

I have got to realize that it is normal and expected to be persecuted and hated by all men if I were to share the gospel. I'm not even hated and already I'm scared. Jesus You loved, You healed, You taught, You saved, You gave Your all! God help me to follow You to the end, help me to be bold in loving Your people and telling them about Your Son, Jesus Christ.

"I will search for the lost and bring back the strays. I will bind up the injured and strengthen the weak..." (Ezekiel 34: 16)

It's ALL ABOUT HIS LOVE!!

2008-02-25T18:46:00.000-08:00

After writing class I went back to my dorm and started to pray for my school.

The small room was stuffy and my stomach was growling, but once I opened my mouth to praise Him, everything else melted away and it was just me and God.

As I paced back and forth, I saw the scripture I posted on my wall:

Jesus went through all the towns and villages, teaching in their synagogues, preaching the good news of the kingdom and healing every disease and sickness.
When He saw the crowds, He had compassion on them, because they were harassed and helpless, like sheep without a shepherd.
(Matthew9:35~36)

And my heart started pounding; I mean, the Almighty came down Himself to heal His people and tell them of the good news. Jesus was filled with love and compassion when He looked at His people; His heart was moved when He saw how harassed and helpless His beloved children were!

Lord please let me see what You see and feel what You feel! Fill me with Your compassion, that I'll have the boldness to pray for strangers, to release Your power of healing, of signs and wonders in my school!...God, it's ALL ABOUT YOUR LOVE!...Jesus, it's ALL ABOUT YOUR LOVE for Your children!...Lord let Your love flow in this place, let Your love sweep across the whole campus that the roots of darkness, the roots of spiritual strongholds will be dug out and burnt!

We need Your love so much God! We need Your salvation, Jesus! Lord let me be a channel of love, that I'll love Your people!

It is time to start a Love Movement, in our schools, workplaces, and families! Because it is not about us, but ALL ABOUT HIS LOVE!

Is God Cruel?

2008-02-11T20:53:00.000-08:00

When I read Joshuah 6~10, I was shocked by all the bloody and violent wars, the way Joshuah slaughtered the people young and old, stoned a sinner along with his wife and children to death, hung the dead bodies of the kings he killed, etc. It was scary, cruel, and disturbing.

"How could You be so cruel Lord? You don't even spare the widowed, the elderly, or the young. Why should that sinner's innocent children and wife suffer such a torturous death? If that's what people who disobey You deserve, then no one on this earth can escape Your wrath. Would You have slaughtered me as well for my sins?"

At first I thought it was so wrong and savage and @#@$% for God to just kill and kill in the Old Testament, but then I remembered that God is the One who gave life, and He has every right to take it away.

Then I realized just how patient and merciful God has been with the world today. I mean, in the Old Testament, people get killed for the "smallest" sins. Yet right now the earth is covered with sins: child prostitution, abortion, idol worship, and things that should have caused God to wipe out the entire human race. The Old Testament showed me just how horrid and unacceptable sin is to God.

Lord You are just and right in all You do, I praise You for Jesus Christ, for Your mercy, Your grace, and Your salvation. Lord bless America, have mercy on this nation, and turn her around from sin. Jesus may You use Your people to shine the light of Christ's love onto America, and to bring more souls to salvation.

Like Pastor Kong Hee said, "How do we push back the darkness? By taking cities for God; whenever one soul gets saved, that city gets a little brighter". Lord I pray that Your love will chase away the darkness one soul at a time, one city at a time, one region at a time.

"I have come into the world as a light, so that no one who believes in me should stay in darkness." (John12:46)

A Lesson For A Control Freak

2008-02-03T23:18:00.000-08:00

Ha ha! I am BACK! I haven't blogged for almost TWO months, bad Alice.

But God is good (changing the subject), and here's what's been going on:

The Lord has been shaping me, renewing me, and teaching me. He taught me that I had been self-centered in the past, always praying for what I want and not what He wants.

I want to be mature, I want to love more, I want to have the strength to go on, I want to be more diligent, I want to be closer to You, I want to feel Your love, I want to ace that midterm, I want my Dad to be saved...

Me, me, me, me, me, it was all about my desires. I was unwilling to listen to God, unwilling to let Him be the Lord in my life. I mean praying about those things are good, but my prayers lacked a very important thing: listening to Jesus. I wanted to control my own life instead of letting God take control.

The Lord reminded me to once again pray for His guidance, for His will, for His plans for me and to listen to Him.

I have sort of treated Jesus like a genie, whom I can pray to for my wishes to come true. It's time to stop all that nonsense and to let Jesus be the Lord in my life again.

Father what do You want to do in my life this year? What do you want to do in my school? What do you want me to do in Impact, in seven eleven?

Thank You Jesus, for being such a good leader of air-head followers like me! God You are good! You are always GOOD!

"If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there Your hand will guide me. You right hand will hold me fast." (Psalms139: 9~10)

Sunday Service

2007-12-09T23:20:00.000-08:00

GOOD LUCK ON FINALS GUYS!! YOU CAN DO IT!!

Wow, today's worship was just heavenly! I feel like I haven't worshiped so freely for a while and this afternoon the Holy Spirit just made my heart burn for God. Lord I can sing of Your love forever!

Pastor David's sharing completely blew me away. I had been praying to God to tell me what my calling is and to help me live a disciplined and purpose-driven life, so today's message on goals and Pastor David's prayer gave me God's answer. Hallelujah!

Importance of goals:
Goals determine our attitude. Attitude determines our sense of joy. That sense of joy determines our sense of purpose. Many people in this world live like football athletes running around and hitting each other aimlessly. We need to set goals to know where to run! We need to set our end zones right so nothing in this world will be able to shake us. We won't be drown by this world because God has shown us the light.

Two end zones that we will/must go after for the rest of our lives if we love Jesus:

1.First End Zone: Build Up God's Kingdom: We need to prepare for the harvest by building God's system so people will see His light.

Billions Will Be Saved: In Revelation7:9~15, John saw countless people before God's throne. These people were all saved during the Tribulation. City after city will surrender to God in a matter of days as nation after nation will turn to Him before Christ returns. If ten billion will be saved in seven years that means three millions will accept God as their personal savior every day!! This is incredible! I'm so excited!
The Need For A "God System": Yet the Tribulation is also a time of great darkness; the anti-Christ will take over and rule this earth with one government. To counter that, the people of God needs to start building a global system of refuge that will offer a way out of the anti-Christ' network. Billions don't get saved because big churches are build or holy preachers are raised; they will get saved if we would build up God's network on earth. We are called to be the light of the world and the salt of the earth. We need to establish a system not of this world but of heaven.
Building His Kingdom Now: A kingdom is made of government, education, and economy. It takes a lot of money to build a kingdom, but God desires many of us to have the wealth of Babylon to build up the system. God will use us as key people to turn kings' hearts to God's kingdom. That's why we need to study hard in school so in the future we can connect with CEO's of global companies that dominate the world. We need God's people to rise up in every area: in the government, in the education system, and in the economy. God will use the world's system to equip us, and we need to do all we can to learn so we can invest into God's kingdom. This is not the time to slack off, this is a time to work hard. We need to excel above our peers because we are going to build a system not of this world. There is a calling to take leadership and build up God's network, a network built for the sake of saving souls.

2. Second End Zone: Jesus' Millennium: Everything we do today needs to be built into the Kingdom of light and last forever into eternity.

There will be a flood that washes everything away when Christ returns. When the flood comes everything will perish, but the system we built in this world for God will stand. Everything we do will stand strong so when Christ comes, He will not destroy it, and will build His millennium kingdom on it. That's what it means to build for the eternal kingdom.

It is time for us to shift our reliance on the systems of this world to the kingdom of God, because the world will soon come under Satan's control. If we build our confidence on the world, we are building our houses on sand. We need to build our house on Jesus, the Rock.

Let's run toward these two end zones and follow Jesus!

THIS IS TOO FUNNY

2007-12-04T16:13:00.000-08:00

Hahaha, o man, I had to share this with y'all. Tarah, my STI prayer group leader, kept in touch with us through email, and here's one of them:

These are HILARIOUS!!!

They're Back! Those wonderful Church Bulletins!
These sentences actually appeared in church bulletins or were announced in church services:

The Fasting & Prayer Conference includes meals.

The sermon this morning: "Jesus Walks on the Water."
The sermon tonight: "Searching for Jesus."

Ladies, don't forget the rummage sale. It's a chance to get rid of those things not worth keeping around the house. Bring your husbands.

Remember in prayer the many who are sick of our community.

Don't let worry kill you off - let the Church help.

Miss Charlene Mason sang "I will not come this way again," giving obvious pleasure to many in the congregation.

For those of you who have children and don't know it, we have a nursery downstairs.

Next Thursday there will be try outs for the choir. They need all the help they can get.

Irving Benson and Jessie Carter were married on October 24 in the church. So ends a friendship that began in their school days.

A bean supper will be held on Tuesday evening in the church hall. Music will follow.

At the evening service tonight, the sermon topic will be "What is Hell?" Come early and listen to our choir practice.

Eight new choir robes are currently needed due to the addition of several new members and to the deterioration of some older ones.

Scouts are saving aluminum cans, bottles and other items to be recycled. Proceeds will be used to cripple children.

Please place your donation in the envelope along with the deceased person you want remembered.

The church will host an evening of fine dining, super entertainment and gracious hostility.

Potluck supper Sunday at 5:00 PM - prayer and medication to follow.

The ladies of the Church have cast off clothing of every kind. They may beseen in the basement on Friday afternoon.

This evening at 7 PM there will be a hymn singing in the park across from the Church. Bring a blanket and come prepared to sin.

The pastor would appreciate it if the ladies of the congregation would end him their electric girdles for the pancake breakfast next Sunday.

Low Self Esteem Support Group will meet Thursday at 7 PM. Please use the back door.

The eighth-graders will be presenting Shakespeare's Hamlet in the Church basement Friday at 7 PM. The congregation is invited to attend this tragedy.

Weight Watchers will meet at 7 PM at the First Presbyterian Church. Please use large double door at the side entrance.

Pastor Updyke unveiled the church's new tithing campaign slogan last Sunday with the slogan: "I Upped My Pledge - Up Yours."

Sunday Service

2007-12-02T23:30:00.000-08:00

We had some awesome testimonies today; Sarah led a friend to Christ through msn, John and several other Supernatural On Campus comrades encountered the Holy Spirit through wholehearted worship, and Amy took a leap of faith out of her comfort zone to pray for a waiter at Shakey's Pizza! I'm so encouraged by what John did at UCSD, I want to gather with other sisters and brothers in Christ in UCI as well!

CHALLENGE OF THE WEEK (got it from Saturday's ministry meeting): 515. Meet 5 new friends this week and get their information. Share the gospel to at least 1 of the new friends. Stay in contact through whatever means (texting, emailing, calling, mailing an Impact postcard, and instant messaging) with the 5 new friends. Wow, this is what I call living a focused life!

Today Jack's topic is: "God is Our Foundation"

He Commanded us to GO: In Acts 21, the disciples traveled to different places. These Christ followers believe that everywhere they go, there are nonbelievers who need Jesus' salvation. The disciples' mission was simply to spread the gospel. God will do miracles through us, but only when we are willing to stand up and go. In Matthew28:19, Jesus gave His people the great commission; He didn't say, "stay and study my Word first," Jesus told them to "Go! Go out there and make disciples of all nations!" It is time to reap the harvest for God's kingdom, and we cannot afford to waste anymore time waiting until we are "ready" to do God's work.

Paul Declared That God Is His Foundation: So anyway, Paul wanted to go to Jerusalem, but all the disciples pleaded with him not to go. There are many people persecuting and attempting to kill the apostle. A prophet also urged Paul not to go to Jerusalem, yet Paul answered, "Why are you weeping and breaking my heart? I am ready not only to be bound, but also to die in Jerusalem for the name of the Lord Jesus."(v.13) Paul was eager for His Lord to be known and he had already given everything up for God long ago. Paul is declaring, "My God is good! I build my faith upon the rock, the Lord is my foundation!"

Worshiping Him In The Wilderness: The name of our God is Foundation. In Isaiah28:16, God built the cornerstones on Zion. God loved that place so much because David worshiped Him there constantly. Though Zion is a deserted place, the Lord called it His dwelling place. Where is our Zion? God wants to meet us in our spiritual wilderness. The wilderness is God's invitation to us to encounter Him in the most intimate way. When we are most weak we'll hunger after the Lord more and God will respond to our cry.

God Is Smiling At Us: When we are dry in the spirit, when we are feeling hopeless, when depression is overwhelming us, God is there, shining His smile at us and trying to cheer us up. Such tender love! Imagine the Creator of heaven and earth, the Almighty God, the Holy One, kneeling down besides His fallen child and doing everything to let His beloved know that everything will be alright, that He will make the pain go away, and that He will never abandon the child. In Psalm42, the psalmist cries out to God in his distress and marvels at how kind the Lord's countenance is. When we fail in life, when others criticize us, when everything seems to be falling apart, we can turn to God, and find Him smiling down at us, comforting and encouraging us.

A Pastor's Dream: In heaven, the servants of God lined up and offered their sacrifices to God with their faces down. The Lord went from one servant to another, carrying a torch in His hand and setting each offering on fire. Some offerings got burnt to ashes completely, some only partly, and those servants wept with sorrow. When the Lord approached the pastor, he woke up from his dream, terrified. What kind of foundation are we building for our lives? Will it withstand the test in the end? Our lives need to be based on Jesus Christ, the foundation God laid down for us, or else we will be like fools building houses on sand, and when a tsunami comes the house will immediately crumble.

But as always, Jack "saved" the best for the last (we love you Jack!), here are his main points:

1. Foundation Provides Security: Jesus is our security. His insurance policy is forever free, forever guaranteed, and has the best service! God wants us to live a worry-free life. Worry is actually a sin because when we worry we are not trusting in God. The church in Redding proclaimed that Redding is a cancer-free city because in God's kingdom there is no illness! Let's proclaim that the cities we live in are worry-free zones! Long Beach, Bakersfield, Riverside, San Gabriel, Pasadena, Irvine, and San Diego are worry-free zones in the name of Jesus!

2. Foundation Brings Hope: God's unfailing love brings us hope. His love is patient, it endures, and it suffers long. God brings us new hope daily. He doesn't toss us a second hand or used hope, He always gives us brand new hope! We have hope in God, that whatever we build upon our foundation in Christ will stand firm to the end.

3. Foundation Never Fails: the world will fade away, but God's Word will remain. In Isaiah54:10~11, God declared that His unfailing love will never be shaken, and that He will build us with sapphire and stones of turquoise. Sapphire symbolizes love and longing! The Lord longs for us with great affection. Stones of turquoise stand for friendship and consistency in relationship. Wow, the King of all kings and Lord of all lords calls us His beloved friend! This is awesome!

God I want to build my life on this rock instead of sand, Lord be the fire in me, be the purpose of my life!

A Beautiful Day

2007-11-30T20:00:00.000-08:00

God I love You, You're so beautiful!

I loved the rain today, it's so cool and refreshing. As I walked to class, I saw how the trees and flowers are flourishing in the shower, and I could hear all creations singing praises to our God. Jesus, thank You for Your beautiful creations, thank You for Your abundant love, thank You for Your goodness, thank You for Your grace.

Before I went into the classroom, a lady gave me a tiny brochure. "The Evidence of God" the title read, and my heart bounded a little faster. Alright, people are spreading the gospel! I thought. Sadly, the girl walking ahead of me took one glance at the brochure and tossed it into the trashcan.

The brochure tells of the story of how a former atheist come to encounter God. Lee was a strong believer in Evolution and rejected Creationism completely, yet after a mass amount of research, Lee found Evolution not only lacking much evidence but quite unreasonable as well.

Lord I pray for Your truth to be know on my campus, let more people's hearts be changed and turn to You! Reach Your hand into this school!

Let Fire Fall Down On My Campus

2007-11-27T19:39:00.000-08:00

Thank You Jesus!

Isabel, my hallmate, actually invited me to a Bible study group!! A friend from Orchestra (Isabel plays the cello) brought her there. "I'm not really believing yet," she said, "but I'm curious. So how did you come to believe in God?" I shared with her about how I got saved three years ago and how God's love has been transforming me and others around me. I am so excited for her! At the same time I feel ashamed; I haven't been praying for her or trying to win her for the Lord, and she turned out to be the one asking me to a Bible study group! God You are GOOD! Help me to lead her to You. Unfortunately Bible study seemed to be canceled this week, hope we can go together next week!

Today I prayed for Cindy, Isabel's roommate, who has been very very sick this week. She didn't stop coughing after I prayed for her, but I know God is healing her. Our God is a God who heals!

Jesus I love You, please give me a compassionate heart for the lost, and use me to bring Your people to You.

"For no matter how many promises God has made, they are 'Yes' in Christ. And so through Him the 'Amen' is spoken by us to the glory of God. Now it is God who makes both us and you stand firm in Christ. He anoints us, set His seal of ownership on us, and put His Spirit in our hearts as a deposit, guaranteeing what is to come." (2 Corinthians 1:20~23)

Lord Am I Ugly?

2007-11-26T22:30:00.000-08:00

I had always wanted to be skinny.

I would look at others around me and envy. There were periods of time when I wanted to be skinny so bad that I was willing to do anything to lose weight. During the Thanksgiving break, that desire exploded in me. I limited myself to eating only main meals (my mom will kill me if I don't eat) and vowed that I'll starve myself once I return to school. I hated my fat body.

Last night I felt overwhelmed by loneliness and self-condemnation. I came before God. I struggled as I told my Lord about the countless times I've looked in the mirror and said,"You are so ugly with your small eyes, stupid glasses, pimples, and fat body!", about how I was so jealous of those pretty girls with their perfect bodies, and about how I wanted to starve myself.

"God!" I cried out, "Help me! I am sinning against You with my rebellious heart! God I need You! I'm losing it! I want to have a healthy self-image, I want to look at myself the way You do, I want to believe that I am beautiful in Your eyes, but I just can't! I can't! Lord help me to surrender my all to You once again..." I was sobbing, I felt so ugly, so hurt.

Then I heard Him, clear as if He was right there with me,

"I am your Shepherd, I am your Father, you belong to me, I'll take care of you..."

Immediately I felt a wave of peace washing over me, calming the storm inside of me. I felt His hand lifting the burden from my heart. I felt Him pouring new strength into me. My Heavenly Father was holding me in His loving arms, telling me over and over again that I was His own and that He'll take care of me. Tears streamed down my face as I feel my heart being healed by God.

This isn't going to be easy. It will take time. But my Lord will be there helping me to recover a healthy self-image, He will be there guiding me on the right path. God has given me the strength to choose eating healthy and exercising regularly instead of starving myself.

God I pray for everyone who feels ugly and worthless. I pray for those who feel they are too fat, too skinny, too tall, or too short. God please fill them with Your love. Lord, in this society that constantly distort our perception of beauty, it is so hard to feel beautiful and valuable. It is so hurtful. Jesus please help us, help us to know that You see beyond our physical appearances, that You treasure us simply because we are Yours. God please heal those suffering from eating disorders, depression, and drug addiction. Lord free the prisoners! God Your grace is strong enough!

Jesus thank You, thank You for giving me hope, faith, and new strength. Abba Father I love You!

"Praise be to the Lord, to God our Savior, who daily bears our burdens. Our God is a God who saves; from the Sovereign LORD comes escape from death." (Psalms68:19~20)

And now I'm going to go eat some fruit :)

"Your beauty...should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight." (1Peter3:3~4)

Sunday Service

2007-11-25T23:56:00.000-08:00

Hey! Wasn't today's worship beautiful? It touched my heart so much; I was reminded to thank Jesus for all His love and grace. Thank You Lord!

Today Jack reminded us again that the Holy Spirit is still writing the book of Acts even now: how Sarah prayed for the sick at Rite Aid, how Stephanie heard God telling her about the science building, how Eric encountered the Lord in his morning jog, how Jasmine and Monay testified for God at UCLA...will all be eagerly recorded down by the Holy Spirit. We need to put our antenna up and constantly listen to what God has to say to us.

Joke of the Week: Paul was teaching on the third floor of a building, and a young man sitting by the window dozed off (perhaps he partied too hard last night). The sleepyhead fell out of the window and plunged to his death. Paul immediately ran down and God raised the man from death (cool! they didn't even need to dial 911!)--Acts 20: 7~12

Moral of the Story: Don't fall asleep when your pastor is preaching, you never what will happen to you.

This hilarious but true story also shows us what our generation is like: sleeping and being killed off one by one by the enemy. We will see more and more signs and wonders toward the end of times. The devil will do everything in his power to corrupt this generation; he is raising up an army. What are we going to do about it? We are either on God's side or on Satan's side, there is no middle ground. Either we have oil in our lamp or we don't. It's a yes or no. We must develop a close relationship with God!

But Jack saved the best for last, his topic for today is actually about criticism.

How To Overcome Criticism

1. Know that our God is Jehovah Tsidkenu, God is our righteousness. When others criticize or misunderstand us, we need to turn to God, who will take our cases and carry out justice for us.

2. Know that it is more blessed to give than to receive (Acts 20:35). When people stab us in the back with cruel remarks, we can forgive instead of take revenge by stabbing back. We can demonstrate God's love by blessing those who mistreat us. Rather than punching the light out of your friend when she laughs at your bad haircut, forgive and compliment her haircut; rather than shouting at your dad when he criticizes your "inappropriate" outfit for the hundredth time, think about how he made that remark out of love and thank him for his concern; rather than ambushing the king Saul in your life, put everything in God's hands.

3. Rejoice in our Heavenly Father's love for us. God doesn't tell us to shut up when we cry. He grieves with us when we are hurt by other people's criticisms. Jesus comforts and tries to cheer us up when we cry. Remember this image: a father trying to ease his child's pain by tickling him, that is our loving God.

Overcoming criticism also requires humility. Paul has been persecuted and criticized everywhere he went, yet he never gave up. How did he do it? Here's Paul's secret: "I serve the Lord with great humility and with tears..." (Acts 20:19). Great humility doesn't mean great sense of worthlessness. It comes from knowing who God is and who you are to Him. To be humble is to glorify God in everything you do; humility is the attitude you have when you respond to God's love and greatness. Paul knew that God is faithful and that he is a beloved child to Him, so people's criticisms couldn't bring him down. Moreover, when Paul said that he served the Lord with tears, he didn't mean tears of self-pity. Paul didn't cry for the trials and persecutions, he cried for the lost; he knew God's heart's desires. Our tears shouldn't be wasted on people's criticisms, we should lend our tears for God's heart to save the lost.

God is so good! I learned a lot today.

"And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out His love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom He has given us." (Romans5:5)

Happy Thanks Giving!!

2007-11-21T17:42:00.000-08:00

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!

Besides from the awesome four-day break, this holiday should also be about blessing others with what we have. Other than studying and having fun, what else can I do? Well, a lot! I will:

1. Grab this chance to share God's love with family members through actions instead of words.
2. Help out preparing dinner.
3. Talk to relatives after dinner instead of just chilling with cousins or watching TV.
4. Help clean up the tables.
5. Hug my relatives.
6. Write to my family at Taiwan.
7. Give a donation to International Christian Concerns to help those persecuted for their faith.
8. Thank my God for who He is and what He has done

Also, since Thanksgiving is also about giving thanks to those around me...

Thank You Annie: For all your prayers and the time you invested in me, for listening to my endless venting, for every single hug, for buying me that gift from VS (I donno if you remember, it was two years ago, you bought it as a reward for me getting into AP English), for dreaming for me, for making me feel like I'm beautiful and valuable, for all your advices and encouragements, and for getting me through depression. Annie your love helped me to accept God's love; you've helped me grow and mature into a woman in God.

Thank You Amy: for all those times you told me that I'm the best sister in the world (next to Sala), for teaching me how to love with patience, for encouraging me with your pure heart of worship, for every letter (folded into airplanes) of apology you gave me after our fight when we were little (even when it was clearly my fault and I should have been the one apologizing), for teaching me humility, for that absolutely delicious cake you baked for my 18 birthday, and for being the cutest little sister in the world.

Thank You Eric: for making me feel welcomed when I first went to Impact, for your friendship, for your commitment to God, and for the genuine way you treat friends.

Thank You George: for your awesome sense of humor, for loving everyone around you, for being a faithful brother in Christ, and for encouraging others with your testimonies.

Thank You Jack: for loving me even when I'm being difficult, for your patient guidance, for giving me a father figure to follow, for hugging me that Christmas party, for bandaging my deepest wounds, for replying all of my crazy long emails with such caring detail, for helping me build a healthy self-image, for leading me to Christ, for interceding for me, for challenging me to grow, for equipping me to overcome strongholds...man, I can't type anymore, I'm crying too much, thank you for being my shepherd and guiding me on my walk with Jesus!

Thank You Jennifer: for enduring three whole weeks of living with me at Kansas (haha), for encouraging me that time at the hotel when I was feeling like a loser, for being so real and genuine in loving, for praying for me at church the other day (I was crying and you prayed for God's protection over me, a lady prayed for my protection again at GodChick), for strengthening my faith with yours, for giving me the honor of being your comrade and sister in Christ.

Thank You Jasmine: for hugging me almost every time we meet, for being so open, for letting me take part in turning one of your beautiful poems into a song, for lending me those DVDs, for practicing the drama with me in the parking lot (haha, remember? it was just us), for inviting me to sleep over (even though we didn't get to do it), and for being a true, good friend. I love you!

Thank You J: for teaching me the chicken dance (haha, thanks to you, our skit had a great ending), for encouraging me with your diligent lifestyle, and for your wholehearted worship to God.

Thank You Joshuah: for saying "good job Alice" so many times I've lost count, for being a loving and supportive brother in Christ, for the way you humbly serve those around you, and for setting an example for all of us by sharing the gospel with your co-workers.

Thank You MQ: for lighting that spark in me with your passion for God, for giving me my first professional haircut (if it weren't for you, my hair would still have the same style I was born with), for giving me my second professional haircut (I guess bangs don't work for me), and for your kindness and encouragement.

Thank You Monay: for showing me what being genuine to others mean, for bringing joy and laughter wherever you go, for encouraging me with how patiently you answered the girl's tough and endless questions at Supernatural on Campus, for blessing me with your love for Jesus.

Thank You May: for being my spiritual partner, for keeping me accountable all those times, for memorizing Bible verses with me, for letting me go to your house that time I didn't feel like going home, for praying with me at AHS all those lunch times, for saving me from the afternoon heat by giving me rides home, for taking me to church countless sundays, for always being so honest with me, for staying by my side during my depression, and for keeping me going hard after Jesus.

Thank You Priscilla: for being such a fun friend to be with, for sharing what you experienced at STI in detail to me, for trusting in God no matter what, and for your heart of serving others.

Thank You Sarah: for praying for me when I was still a Jehovah's Witness, for bringing me to Impact, for leading me to Jesus, for being such a loving and caring sister, for buying that ipod for me, for arranging that surprise party for my sweet 16, for cheering me up countless times when I'm angry, for giving me so many chances to shape my talents (letting me help preparing summer camp..etc.), for believing in me, for treating me to meals, for taking me to so many places with you, for sharing your life with me, and for setting an example for me. I seriously don't know what kind of person I would be if it weren't for you, always, always being there for me, guiding me along the way. Thank you sarah...

Thank You Stephanie: for your warm friendship, for giving me a ride so many times during our summer camp preparation, for being so caring when I was feeling down because of my roommate, for giving me words of encouragement, and for calling me "girlie" :)

Thank You Stacey: for forgiving my attitude, for being an awesome sister in Christ, for always coming before God with such a pure heart, and for caring for the people around you.

Thank You Tiffany: for being my fantastically wonderfully crazy good partner! for being one of the few people I can pour my heart out to, for your love and support, for all those laughters, for encouraging me to never ever give up on God, for being such a prayer warrior, for that beautiful card and gift you gave me for my birthday, for sharing what's on your mind with me, for helping me translate that long letter to my dad, for encouraging me with all those great testimonies, for chatting on the phone with me, and for this great friendship we have with each other. You are so awesome!!

I Need Discipline!

2007-11-20T19:30:00.000-08:00

YAY! Today I'm a good girl! Thank You Lord, for helping me discipline myself, God You've brought hope into my life and helped me to get organized.

So I got up early and didn't miss Psychology lecture, then I ate breakfast, and did devotion. Today I read Psalms 63 and boy, I think I just found my favorite chapter of Psalms:

"O God, You are my God, earnestly I seek You, my soul thirsts for You, my body longs for You, in a dry and weary land where there is no water.
I have seen You in the sanctuary and beheld You power and Your glory.
Because Your love is better than life, my lips will glorify You.
I will praise You as long as I live, and in Your name I will lift up my hands.
My soul will be satisfied as with the richest of foods; with singing lips my mouth will praise You.
On my bed I remember You; I think of You through the watches of the night.
Because You are my help, I sing in the shadow of Your wings.
My soul clings to You; Your right hand upholds me."
(Psalms63:1~8)

God helped me to lift my head up, abandon all my worries, trust in Him, and run with Him. In my weakness I enjoyed His presence and hungered after knowing Him even more.

Afterwards I took a shower, went to math discussion class, ate lunch, and did devotion. Man, this time God impacted me so strongly during worship that my heart just seemed to explode with joy and desire for my Savior! I felt all the pressure, stress, and burden leave me as I sang "You're always good, You're always good". The Lord strengthened me through worship.

Then I called Cindy, and together we went to study. I've finally found a study buddy, now I have someone to keep me accountable so I won't procrastinate. Cindy taught me alot of interesting study strategies, and I was actually able to get biology now. Praise God!

At 4:30pm I left for my health leaders class. Today we talked about the use of tobacco on campus. There's this thing called hooka, it's like a big pot with a long tube to smoke from; people would gather around the hooka and pass the tube around. It's very addicting and worse than smoking cigarettes. Many people are using the hooka with friends on a regular basis, even the people in my health class. Yet at the end, what was the speaker's suggestion? "Well, I'm not telling you not to smoke hooka, but here's a way to prevent disease transmission when you are smoking hooka: bring your own mouthpiece, I think they are selling them at the hooka bars as well." I just gaped at her. Unbelievable! That's how you do health education? Teaching them the "safe" way to smoke? When I got back to my dorm I started praying for my school.

Dear God, let Your power shake this campus, wash it clean of sexual immoralities and drug addictions! God I repent for the sins of my fellow students, have mercy and come down in Your power! Remind me daily to cry out for this campus, God save Your children from the enemy's traps! It is absolutely heartbreaking how people are trashing their bodies and being chained to addictions. Lord let Your light shine in this place.

Now it's time for more studying! No more procrastinating!

A New Week

2007-11-19T19:41:00.000-08:00

Oh Jesus I feel so depressed...I think I'm failing both math and biology. I don't want to fail any class! It would mean that I've wasted a whole quarter's time away plus lots of money.

Lord I feel so bad; I've been ditching classes (I can't count how many times I've overslept and missed my morning classes) and procrastinating. What am I doing? You've given me such grace to go to college and this is how I show my gratitude? I'm scared, finals are less than a month away...God I don't want to waste anymore precious time away, help me to live a focused and purpose-driven life! Help me to live with wisdom and obedience to Your commandments.

God change my attitude, fill me with Your Spirit, and guide me to follow You. Help me to spend more time with people in school; how can I share the gospel and love people (the second greatest commandment) if I refuse to get out of my shell and comfort zone? Jesus You are good, forgive my sins, open my eyes to see Your glory, open my ears to hear Your voice. God I need You. Wake me up from my slumber and remind me that I am a soldier in war. God please be my strength and help me to fight!

"So, if you think you are standing firm, be careful that you don't fall!" (1 Corinthians10:12)

Sunday Service

2007-11-18T19:11:00.000-08:00

I actually updated Saturday and Sunday's entries on Monday. I never get anytime to blog during the weekends, so I always do it when I get back to school.

Today I was supposed to give a teaching on ch.3 of "Passion for Jesus" by Mike Bickle. I was so nervous and really wanted someone to pray for me. I didn't say anything to Sarah, but when we prayed for today's worship, she prayed for me. Then she led everyone to pray for me again after worship. Then Jennifer prayed for me when she prayed for today's offering. All those prayers reminded me that I wasn't supposed to rely on my "eloquence" or human wisdom; I was merely a vessel for the magnificent Jesus!

During worship, I looked at the people around me and felt God's intense love for them; oh how beautiful they are, how lovely their voices are! The Lord is completely rejoiced over them; He is so pleased by His beloved children! God's passionate love overwhelmed me and I started to cry; His love is so gentle, so good. We are all so blessed!

After the teaching, Jack talked about Acts 19. The disciples, led by Paul, was causing a riot in that city. People were burning their idols and the businessmen were running out of business. Furious, they went to the court. Jack reminded us that, as Christians, we should cause chaos wherever we go! Paul brought many to Christ in that city, and people turned away from sorcery. Sorcery doesn't just mean witchcraft, it also means addiction. So if we are addicted to something then we are practicing sorcery and idolatry! Wow, I've never thought of it in that sense. Our idols could be anything: shopping, watching TV, playing video games, even writing blogs! If we are spending more time in a day blogging than spending time with God. We have a problem. We need to turn away from whatever idols we may be worshiping now and back to the One who created us. Isaiah 64 said that we are the clay, what God made. He wants to shape us into beautiful vessels.

Here's Jack's challenge of the week: pray this prayer "God You're my Potter, mold me and shape me" everyday, God loves that! When we ask Him that, He'll most certainly answer, and "interesting" things will start happening in our lives. As God shapes us, we'll come to realize many of our faults.

That night after Mom drove me back to Irvine (I missed the Hillsong concert, again!!), I began my night devotion. During prayer the Lord taught me to humble before Him and allow Him to shape me. Oh Jesus You are good! All I am is a weak soul completely blessed by You and dependent on Your grace! I will thrive in my weakness, for in my weaknesses Your power is shown. Lord let me decrease while You increase; let me go lower while You continue being lifted higher. Shine in my life Lord! Shape me and mold me, for You are my Potter.

"Give us aid against the enemy, for the help of man is worthless. With God we will gain the victory, and He will trample down our enemies." (Psalms60:11~12)

7-11 Update!

2007-11-17T23:30:00.000-08:00

It was such a fun night! In the afternoon (I really like the new time for our cell group) I drove Amy, Jasmine, Monay, and myself to Jack&Annie's place. I was a terrible driver and made all of us late (sorry guys!) thank You Lord for protecting us on our way there!

Anyways, during 7-11 we talked about Jennifer's awesome dream, Stephanie's new friends at Long Beach, and Jasmine&Monay's song. That song was so moving, and it was amazing how God led Jasmine to introduce that song at exactly the time Wave decided to have a candle-lighting opening at the party! The song was about lighting the darkness with candles, a perfect match for the opening; coincidence? I think NOT!

Then Annie had us discuss what we should do when an "oddball" (for example, a girl who dresses a little too revealing) joins Impact. Annie taught us that we shouldn't treat such a person with a criticizing heart; we should be sensitive, caring, and tending to the person's needs. Sometimes, we don't necessarily have to "preach" to the person; all we need to do is to be her friend and continue to intercede for her. That discussion made me realize how quick I had always been to judge the people around me; Lord please give me a humble and loving heart.

After 7-11, Sarah took Monay, Jasmine, Amy and I to Shakey's for dinner. We had a great time. Sarah encouraged all of us to pray for a certain family or someone in the restaurant. So we all did. Amy was nervous at first and asked us what exactly should she say when she approaches the person. But then she just stood up and walked up to that person all by herself and asked him (an employee eating by himself) if she could pray for him! We were all so surprised by her courage! Even though he turned down her offer, Amy's action encouraged all of us.

Jesus, You are so good, please continue to shape us and mold us to become more like You. Help us to be the light of the world!

A Lesson On Humility

2007-11-17T00:03:00.000-08:00

This morning I did devotion as usual, worshiping Him with songs and prayers. Yet today my heart was hard and my spirit was battling within me.

God I'm scared, I feel lost, I'm strangled by my sins. Jesus I just want to escape from reality and all those problems from dealing with people.

God, I have a horrible attitude with my Mom. Whenever she's trying to give me some suggestions, I'd feel like she's looking down at me. "See, your God can't do anything," her disapproving stare seems to say, "If He's so powerful and you worship Him, why are you still the same, prideful, and selfish brat that you've always been?" Oh God, whenever I face my Mom, she would start picking on me, making me feel so weak and imperfect. Lord, I guess that's how You make me humble and help me realize that I have been prideful; I've been thinking that I'm better than my Mom and everyone else because I'm so "holy", that's why I get so angry whenever she gives me the tiniest advice. "Who are you to criticize me?" That had always been my attitude.

My pride is corrupting my worship; Lord, how can I worship You with such an arrogant heart? Oh Jesus I want to be real now, I want to live with honesty. I'll admit my flaws and accept correction from people, I'll humbly love and serve them. I want to be authentic! I don't want to live with a prideful heart, an angrily condemning spirit, and a haughty mask saying "I'm holy and perfect in loving God and people and you are not." Jesus forgive me! Have mercy on me! I surrender to You. Please help me, today, to love and serve those around me with a genuine and humble heart.

God, I've been so ridiculous, thinking that I gotta be perfect for people to believe in You. Who am I? Who am I to think that I can convince them with my "fake perfection" better than You can? God doesn't need me perfect to save souls; Jesus is good no matter what I do. God is good enough and I don't need to do do anything to "make Him look better". God Himself is good enough to make people fall head over heels for Him.

Lord I thank You for this lesson, please keep it in my heart...Lord I'll show people for who I really am: weak and sinful. Yet Your love is so great that You would patiently shape and mold me to be more and more like Christ. That's what good witnesses are: they show people how weak they really are to demonstrate just how graceful and good God really is. Lord I want to be a true witness instead of an arrogant, self-righteous one. Jesus I love You! Thank You for Your love, grace, patience, and mercy!

"Take my yoke and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart..." (Matthew11:29)

A Taste Of Heaven

2007-11-16T18:42:00.000-08:00

DUDE! I JUST HAD THE MOST AWESOME EXPERIENCE EVER!!! I spent two hours worshiping, praying, reading the word, and just soaking in God's love. It was so good.

Have you ever felt that you need to pray but didn't really want to? That's what I felt, but then I realized that my spirit was crying out for Him, and I decided to give myself two hours to do devotion. That was probably the best two hours I've ever spent in my entire eighteen years of life. It was the end of the day, my roommate already went back to SD so I was all alone in the room; I simply turned on some music and began praising Him.

During worship, I started dancing like crazy. I mean crazy! My arms were flopping around and my legs were kicking everywhere. "Man, this is one ugly dance," I thought to myself, so I began to follow the rhythm, and then it was like the Holy Spirit was guiding my clumsy movements and turning them into a graceful dance. Oh His joy filled and overflowed in me! I was going absolutely hysterical with joy! I'm so blessed! So blessed to be loved by God! So blessed to be saved by Jesus! So blessed to be able to spend eternity with my Creator! Jesus You are so GOOD! I was so hungry after Him! Such yearning! Worship can really reignite a hunger in our spirits for God!

It's really great to allow myself a long time to encounter God; I had always stuck devotion in the morning and in between classes, which made me hurry and unable to enjoy fellowship with God. Short devotions are good, but long ones are important too. It is during those times that I could really go deeper and have the patience to wait upon Him.

That was totally the highlight of my day, whatever else I did wasn't important. If I finished all my studying and homework but didn't spend time with Jesus, I would count today as wasted.

God I love You! Please continue to shape me into the person You want me to be! I want to know You more!

"My heart is steadfast, O God, my heart is steadfast; I will sing and make music. Awake, my soul! Awake, harp and lyre! I will awaken the dawn." (Psalms57:7~8)

Nightmare

2007-11-15T21:08:00.000-08:00

Last night was so scary.

I went to bed at 12, happy to finally get to bed early, and drifted off to sleep. At 3:30am I woke up, went to the restroom, and tried to get back to sleep. Strangely, I became really paranoid and kept thinking that ghost heads will appear at my bedside. I was so scared, my roommate wasn't home, so I turned on the lights. The fear didn't go away. After nearly two horrible hours of tossing and turning, I fell asleep, only to experience one of the worst nightmares I've ever had. I can't recall most of the dream, only that I was being tortured by this girl and being completely terrified. At the end, I found myself struggling to get out of a lake, there was something evil in the lake. I had to get out! At the same time I was trying to wake up, but I couldn't! I could physically feel my limbs going numb as I struggled in the dream. I was so scared! So horrified! So helpless! The girl was laughing at me and saying, "Alice, don't you just hate spiritual warfare?" I was screaming in my head. Finally I woke up, feeling nauseated and dizzy. Oh Lord, why didn't I ask for Your help?

That morning after class, I immediately came back to do devotion. Jesus removed my fear and filled me with peace. "You, O LORD, keep my lamp burning. My God turns my darkness into light" (Psalms 18:28) I just memorized that verse the day before, why couldn't I remember it last night? Every time I face fear, I would panic and all my faith, trust, and strength would dissolve, leaving me lost. Jesus please help me, train me to run to You whenever I'm in trouble! Something really cool happened during devotion. The portion I was going to read today was Psalms 56, and it talked about trusting God when confronted by fear!

"When I am afraid, I will trust in You. In God, whose word I praise, in God I trust; I will not be afraid..." (v.3~4)

Amen! God You are so good! Once again I'll surrender every part of my life to You. Jesus reign in me, guide me, and teach me the way that I should go.

Midterms Midterms Midterms

2007-11-13T20:29:00.000-08:00

I'm tired. I'm tired I'm tired I'm tired. Oh man I'm tired. I feel like my eyes are falling out. I studied the whole night and took my psych midterm at 8am this morning. One midterm down, two more to go: Biology tomorrow (!!) and math next Monday! I'm gonna pull an all-nighter tonight again...Jesus help...The good news is, my grade for this morning's midterm is already out, and I got a B!! Thank You Lord!!

Today at health class we talked about sexual safety. Man, there are so many STD's out there and so many (gross) ways to contract them! I think I want to be a virgin forever now...yuck! What really bothered me was how sex education is actually promoting sex. I mean, they are making it real convenient by offering unlimited free condoms everywhere! What are they doing?! People are trashing God's temple by mistreating their bodies and committing sexual immorality. Jesus' heart must be broken by the alarmingly high rate of teen pregnancies and people suffering from STD's...This is NOT ok!! God please intervene!

Jesus, I asked You today what Your purpose for my life is, and You told me that it is to shine for You, to lift up Your name in my campus. Lord please help me to carry my cross and walk in obedience to You! I pray that I'll be a living sacrifice, burning for You and declaring Your praises everywhere I go! My life has no meaning if I'm not living for You, for I was created by You and for You alone. God by Your grace I will follow You till the end of days! I love You Abba Father...

Lifehouse "Everything" Skit

No matter how hard the enemy fights to keep us from God, Jesus is faithful and will never abandon us.

"No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord." (Romans8:37~39)

My God Is Good!!

2007-11-12T20:13:00.000-08:00

Jesus thank You!! My devotions are getting better in quality.I can be more concentrated when I'm worshiping and praying. God Your presence is so good!!I was jumping up and down in joy as we said "I love you!!" to each other!!Jesus I love You!!I was also praying for the salvation of my family members at Taiwan; I really need to call them or write them more and share God's love with them! I feel bad because my dad is always the one calling us, and I rarely write to him...Jesus help me and remind me to spend more time on my family! I pray that all of them will be saved!!

"I will sacrifice a freewill offering to You; I will praise Your name, O LORD, for it is good." (Psalms54:6)

Tonight I imitated what we did at the conference: I prayed for word of knowledge so I can do campus invasion. Here's a list of things I got:

A boy with a baseball cap, black backpack, baggypants, and holding a skateboard.
White fountain.
Someone smoking and pacing around.
Banana.
Fish, Sashimi. (Was I hungry when I prayed...?)
A girl with long black hair on a bike.

As I prayed, Jesus reminded me of (Matthew10:24) "A student is not above his teacher, nor a servant above his master" If my Lord was persecuted, how can I expect myself to be accepted and praised? I need to go out there with the willingness to be ridiculed and scorned by others. Out of love Jesus suffered the pain, so I will do it out of love as well. Lord where You go I'll go, what You say I'll say, and what You pray I'll pray!Then I went out.

First I saw a guy on a wheelchair, so I ran up to him. But he started speeding forward! I continued to run after him, but he just went faster and faster! "Dude, this guy's pretty quick!" I thought. Finally I had to shout, "WAIT!" He heard me and slowed down to a stop.

"Hi um...this, this might sound...a little weird, but I just really want to pray for you," I said, trying to catch my breath.
"...You've been chasing after me this whole time?" He looked at me kinda funny

I was embarrassed, but I just said "yeah" and asked again if I can pray for him. He gladly accepted the offer. His name is Arial, and it turned out that he was born with this disease that would paralyze his legs sometimes, making him use a wheelchair; he could walk, but with great difficulty. Arial is a Christian, and he had prayed to God for healing many times before.

So I said a short prayer,"Dear Lord, in Your name I command the paralysis to go away, that he will be healed, because in Your kingdom, there is no sickness. In Jesus name I pray, Amen." Then I asked Arial to try walking around.
"Is this some kind of experiment?" Arial muttered as he limped around.
"Well, I still feel the same," Arial said after awhile. Not knowing what to do, I just assured him that God will heal him.
"Yeah, sometimes it just doesn't happen the way you think it would. Like God's giving you the seed when you asked for an apple," Arial replied. He thanked me and took off.

As I walked on, I realized I should have prayed for him a second time! Man! Then I saw the boy in my vision! He was holding a skateboard, and though he wore a hood instead of a cap, I was pretty sure it was him. Unfortunately, he was chatting with his buddy, and I chickened out. Then I saw the girl with the long black hair on the bike! But again I chickened out and she passed me by. Then I saw about five kids smoking. I did see a person smoking in my vision, but I didn't dare to approach the group. O LORD! This is alot harder than I thought! Discouraged, I started to walk back. That's when I saw the guy smoking by himself, pacing back and forth, like in my vision! By God's grace, I walked up to him.

"Hello, this is really random but...I just feel like I need to pray for you" I said.
The guy (his name's Alex) was friendly and accepted my offer.
"So is there anything particular you would like me to pray for you about?" I asked.
"Well I've been stressing in school and I really miss my family...it's weird, I have been thinking alot about God lately, and you showed up to pray for me...I guess God heard me," Alex said.
"I guess He did," I answered, appearing calm on the outside while on the inside I was going crazy with excitement O MY GOODNESS THIS IS TOO AWESOME!!!JESUS THANK YOU!!!

So I prayed for Alex, and I went back to my dorm. On my way back, I realized that I should have asked him if he knew Jesus or not. MAN I missed the perfect opportunity! O JESUS WHAT HAVE I DONE!!!I MESSED UP AGAIN!!This is so absurd!I felt like crying and laughing at the same time...Lord, I need Your help, please continue to train me...

You see, God uses people in their weakness, if God would use me, He would certainly use you on your campus.

"You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven." (Matthew5:14~16)

Sunday Service

2007-11-11T03:30:00.000-08:00

Man! Today's worship was powerful! Before worship, John led us to pray for the service. We asked for Holy Spirit's presence and divine visitation. Then during worship, everyone felt the strong presence of God. We cried out to encounter Him, to burn for Him, to be the light of this world for Him, and to know His heart. Oh how I yearn for God now! Jesus set me on fire for You! I want to touch Your heart!

After worship John reminded us to honor our spiritual parents, and that none of us would be here if it weren't for Jack and Annie. It is so true! If Jack and Annie hadn't been so patient with me (believe me, I'm hard to deal with) for the past two years (!), praying for me, counseling me, healing me, loving me, and guiding me, I really don't know what kind of corrupted life I'd be living right now! Then we gathered to pray for Jack and Annie: The girls prayed for Annie and the boys prayed for Jack. Lord, forgive me because I haven't been honoring my spiritual parents, I love them and thank You (so so much) for them, please remind me daily to pray for them!

Today Jack talked about God the Potter, who shaped us and called us righteous because of His Son's sacrifice. God is our Fortress, Scepter, and Potter! Jesus, please transform my attitude. I feel like I'm doing a project on spiritual maturity and I'm grading myself on my performance; I have restricted God's control over me by instructing Him which area to improve in my life and rejecting what He wants to do in my life. Oh Lord! I don't want to be like this anymore! You are the Potter, so I'll give You full control in my life. How can the creation say to the Creator: "I know the purpose of my existence and what I need more than You do" ? Lord I know I'm imperfect and that You're shaping me, so I'll stop assessing my own progress and leave that up to You; I'll stop being impatient to see myself mature and trust in Your guidance. Oh God You are my Shepherd, Your rod and Your staff comfort me, and all I need is You to reign in my life.

OH MY GOODNESS JOHNNY GOT BAPTIZED TONIGHT!!! PRAISE THE LORD!!! Knowing John has encouraged me so much on my walk with God, and it was so touching to see him finally getting baptized. Haha, it was funny how we all gathered in the restroom to watch John getting baptized in his bathtub though...Lord bless our brother John, he is now a new creation in You!

PRAISE GOD JIMMY (a new friend at Impact) ACCEPTED JESUS AS HIS PERSONAL SAVIOR TODAY!!! HALLELUJAH!!

Tonight Annie and Jack surprised me with a SUPER delicious green tea cake! After singing happy birthday, I prayed and blew out the candle. I was so happy! This is the best birthday ever! I had family dinner, many awesome gifts, and the green tea cake! It seemed like I was celebrating throughout the entire weekend! Thank you Annie and Jack!!

Supernatural On Campus Conference

2007-11-10T01:02:00.000-08:00

The conference was just a.m.a.z.i.n.g, and though I only went to three sessions, I was blown away by everything. Here are some awesome things I learned:

Getting Ready:
* Revival on campus happens out of complete surrender to Christ (signs and wonders won't happen unless we obey Holy Spirit's guidance) and faith (even when we don't see multitudes on our campus come to Christ, we still need to praise God's goodness). We do not need to see a super revival to be qualified to testify on stage about what God has done in our campus.
* We can't afford to waste anymore time! Whatever we sow in we'll reap from it; if we sow in watching TV all day, that's what we'll reap in our spirit, but if we sow and spend time on praying, we'll reap harvest and anointing from God. We must give up wasteful things to pursue the good things. God will give us revival on our campus, but how much do we want it? How hungry are we to be used by God, not for our sake, but for His sake?

Going In The Campus:
* We are in a time of reaping. God's telling us: the harvest is now!
* (1 Corinthians 2:1~5) Paul preached with the power of God and not eloquence or men's wisdom. When we share the gospel, we don't depend on ourselves to win souls; we depend on God. We don't need to be great speakers to share, because God's power is best shown in our weakness. If we're not walking with an intimacy with Jesus, we won't be able to do anything.
* "Killed in Action" should be our status when we do campus invasion. Our pride, fear, and desire to be respected by others need to be killed when we are on the battlefield. We no longer have reputation when we go out to evangelize, for we have become fools in men's sight for God's kingdom.
* Do open prophetic worship; people will gather because of God's presence and not because of a good event.
* The power is in the cross. If we don't preach the cross, there'll be no deliverance, power, or miracle. The enemy is defeated when we lift up the cross.
* Don't just make believers, make disciples. Today many people are getting radically saved, but most fall away in the end.

The Authority To Heal:
* (Luke 9:1~2; 10:8~9) The kingdom of God is all about healing! When demons are cast out and the sick are healed, people will know that God's kingdom is here.
* We need divine healing on our campus if we want to win souls! Signs and wonders all point people to God; Jesus always impact the heart through miracles before He changes the mind.
* Are we moving in signs and wonders? If not, we need to repent, for this generation has grieved the Holy Spirit by rejecting Him and His work.
* (Mark 16: 15~18) Jesus told us to go and make disciples; in His name we will cast out demons, speak in new tongues, and heal the sick. God has commanded the church to heal. We are ambassadors of Christ empowered to command healing and bring heaven down to earth. (Isaiah 61: 1) God sent us to set the captives free; we are freedom fighters!
* Never doubt God's intention to heal; God is a God who wants to heal and will heal. We pray for the sick out of obedience and our call to love, so don't focus too much on whether they get healed on the spot or not.
* ( 1 Corinthians 13: 1~3) Everything we do must be out of love. If we don't have love, nothing we do will make a difference.

8 Principles To Heal The Sick:
1. Ask for permission to pray for the sick.
2. Ask the person the cause and symptoms of the sickness. Our prayers need to be specific, for example, if we know that the person has headache because of stress, we can pray not just for the pain to go away, but for God to lift their stress as well.
3. Welcome the Holy Spirit before we start praying.
4. Decide whether this sickness is caused by the person's body, by demonic influences, or by unconfessed sins in that person's life.
5. Listen to the Lord and keep the prayer short and simple.
6. After the prayer, ask the person to test if the sickness or injury has gone away. Give post prayer instructions: thank God for the healing out of faith and proclaim God's promises on healing.
7. Praise God no matter what! Faith is diligence and persistence; love is never giving up.
8. Remember to pray in faith.

Prophetic Evangelizing:
* When we go out in our campus, remember that we have gold, something people would die for, that we are not trying to sell ice to Eskimos. People are hungry to hear about the love of God!
* Prophesy over people to win souls. People want to hear prophesy! They are willing to pay money for it when we can do it for free! So ask God for word of knowledge when we pray for them.
____________________________________________________________________

After the morning worship, the speaker, Jaeson Ma, led us all to do a powerful prayer. Everyone shouted the prayer out loud, crying out to Jesus with tears streaming down their faces. We committed ourselves to Jesus and revival on our campus. We prayed for our schools, for us to commit to praying at least one hour a day, and for us to evangelize for God and not for ourselves. I was crying as I said the prayer. I repented for being such an arrogant and loveless hypocrite; I didn't love the nonbelievers and felt no urgency to share the gospel. Also, I had been satisfied with my devotions and regular church attendance. But Jesus reminded me to come back to Him, to desire more of Him. God I want to be on fire for You! I want to go out there and evangelize in the name of love!

In the afternoon we asked for God's word of knowledge and wrote everything God told us down before we went out in twos and threes to do campus invasion. My teammates are Shelbin and Hallie (from Fly Young!!), we prayed for many people and got rejected by many. I felt the difference between praying out of love and out of "religious obligations" during the invasion. Back on my campus, I had tried praying for people, out of a desire to do what I was "supposed to do as a Christian" and not out of love. It had been tiring and fruitless. But when God's love for the lost filled me, I was bold and excited to pray for strangers.

Jesus!! Thank You so much for this conference! I'm going to win souls with prophesy and signs and wonders in UCI! God let Your fire fall down on this campus!

FRIDAY JOKE!!

2007-11-09T18:18:00.000-08:00

It was an awkward situation. Alice's friend, Isabel, was going to have dinner with a Japanese transfer student she met on Facebook. Out of curiosity and lack of better things to do, Alice agreed to go with Isabel. At the restaurant, Isabel told Alice to eat first, while she go pick up her friend. Alone with a bowl of steaming kon pow chicken, Alice waited. Finally Isabel returned with Huah, a senior student from Tokyo University doing a study abroad program at UCI. Huah was polite and has impressive fluency at English. But then it turned out that Huah already ate, so Alice was the only one eating as she faced Isabel and Huah. Isabel didn't know what to say, and they both stared at Alice. Whenever Alice and Isabel made the smallest attempt at being funny, Huah would let out this girly and high-pitched laughter. It startled Alice at first, and then it became annoying.

"Nehehhehheh" Huah snickered again

Trying to break the ice, Alice started showing off her three years' worth of Japanese.

"You know Japanese?" Huah looked impressed.
Feeling a little proud, Alice tried to say, "Ie, nihongo wa heta desu" (No, my Japanese is poor)But what actually came out was:

"Ie, nihongo wa hentai desu" (No, my Japanese is perverted)!!!

Isabel started laughing her head off and Huah looked shocked and bewildered. Realizing her mistake, Alice immediately looked away from the two and felt the increasing heat on her face.

So kids, the moral of the story is: KNOW YOUR FOREIGN LANGUAGE BEFORE SHOWING IT OFF TO RANDOM STRANGERS!!
______________________________________________________________________________________
WOW, today's my 18th birthday! Jesus thank You for creating me, eighteen years ago, on this very day; thank You for loving me even when I was still in the womb; thank You for guiding me all these years! I'm finally legal!!

I was looking back in my diary (I have so many of them)and I was shocked at how rebellious and suicidal I had been last year. I mean, the entry from 9/8/06 and 9/9/06 really scared me; I had written down three options for myself: (1)Gradually pull away from church by lying to church members, making myself busy,making a lot of nonChristian friends,and going to a far away school. (2)Going back to God (there was a cuss word marking this option) or (3)Kill myself and end everything at once. What's so scary about it was that I sounded so calm and so logical. Oh Jesus, how You have changed me within a single year! How You've healed me and turned me away from self-destruction! Your love brought life to my spirit and crushed the enemy's strongholds in my life. Looking back, I realized just how faithful Jesus is, patiently taking care of this arrogant and rebellious sinner. Jesus I love You! Help me not to waste another minute of my life! Help me to mature and become destiny-driven this year.

My hallmates are so sweet, they stayed up till Thursday midnight to tell me happy birthday, they posted birthday cards on my door, they took me to lunch, gave me presents and sang happy birthday. My roommate was even more awesome: she bought me this huge banquet of beautiful flowers and put them in a tall vase wrapped with ribbons. I AM SO TOTALLY LOVING IT!!!

Since lots of my family members are born in November, we are going to celebrate it together by eating hot pot and BBQ Saturday night. I can't wait! I'm so excited about Jaeson Ma's conference too!

"I will praise You forever for what You have done; in Your name I will hope, for Your name is good. I will praise You in the presence of Your saints." (Psalms52:9)

God I Need You

2007-11-08T19:31:00.000-08:00

"Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise Him, my Savior and my God." (Psalms43:5)

Jesus, I'm so stressed out about school. I have loads of stuff to study and memorize, but I just can't concentrate. Even when I isolate myself from my computer by studying in the study room, I would find myself playing games on my cell phone or falling asleep. I feel so bored. Nothing interested me: going online, eating, sleeping, reading, or being with friends. Man, I don't even want to pray right now. I don't understand, I had a great morning devotion, and everything was fine until now. Maybe its the cold weather, maybe its "the girl problem",maybe its the midterms. Whatever it is, God I lay everything down before You, and I will put my hope in You.

"But You are a shield around me, O LORD; You bestow glory on me and lift up my head." (Psalms3:3)

Jesus I love You and I trust in You...God in You I find peace and safety. Let the light of Your face shine upon me. Jesus You are always good. I love You, O LORD, my strength! When I fall down You pick me up, when I am dry You fill my cup, You are my loving Shepherd!

"Oh Lord, Open my lips, and my mouth will declare Your praise." (Psalms51:15)

I'm going to start memorizing verses again. Lord Your Word gives me strength!

His Love Is So Good

2007-11-07T23:18:00.000-08:00

JESUS I LOVE YOU...today was a good day!I studied hard, ate healthy,and most important of all: I encountered You during worship!

Yesterday we learned about nutrition in Health Leaders Class. I learned that I need to eat small portions of food throughout the day to keep my metabolism going;I should eat a healthy snack (i.e, apple,yogurt,Trader Joe's Multigrain Crackers...etc)every three hours. I did that today,I feel great and my stomach isn't that bloated anymore! We really need to take care of our bodies, because it is the Lord's temple...The speaker also gave us a link:

MyPyramid CHECK IT OUT!Find out how to eat healthy and make a customized nutrition + exercise plan specifically for you!

This morning I was actually able to concentrate and pray (usually I would just flip through the Bible and mutter a half-hearted prayer).I mean, I was having a wonderful time talking to my Lord! It really makes a difference to start your day with prayer and worship.Around noontime I gave myself an hour to worship and wait upon Jesus. It was fantastic!I asked Jesus to help me pray and He did; He taught me how to pray and intercede, how to sing and praise. God's wonderful presence filled my tiny dorm, and my heart was pounding with joy. But none of that could compare with what Jesus did during my night devotion.

It was 9:00pm, after I took my sociology midterm and showered, I sat down infront of my desk.Resisting the urge to turn on the computer,I listened to the Onething 2006 CD.As I sang along, my heart melted before Him,and I hungered after God. I haven't felt so overwhelmed like this for a long time, and I didn't realize that I've been missing it until Jesus reminded me. Oh it is so good to know that I am His. God's love is so tender that it makes me want to cry; I feel like someone who's finally found refuge from a raging storm.Jesus my soul finds rest in You, my wounds get healed in You,my burdens get relieved in You, and my stains get cleaned in You.Oh I have found redemption in my God's unfailing love! Before, I had tried to read Song of Songs repeatedly without success;I just couldn't concentrate on King Solomon's flowery words.But at that moment, I felt like singing those romantic verses to Jesus, for my heart was on fire for my God.

Lord You are GOOD and You are FAITHFUL, thank You!!

"Within Your temple, O God, we meditate on Your unfailing love." (Psalms48:9)

A Letter From Hell

2007-11-06T11:44:00.000-08:00

A Soldier in Christ

2007-11-05T21:39:00.000-08:00

OH MY GOODNESS I am so tired. I studied for Wednesday's midterm until 4:30am, slept for two hours, and got up to apply for next year's housing (the online application window opens at 6:00am, cuz it's a first come first serve basis, I wanted to apply as soon as it starts so I can get my first choice). Not surprisingly, when hundreds of anxious students all tried to log in at the same time, the server went down and no one got to apply for housing. So much for getting up early. For the rest of the day I dragged my semi-conscious body from class to class, getting increasingly grumpy and craving for caffeine. My asian eyes got smaller than usual, my face got covered with pimples, and my mind was too busy complaining to thank Jesus for this day.

As soon as I got to my dorm, I braced myself to cram even more to prepare for the midterm. But once I started listening to IHOP's Constant CD, I realized that I didn't spend quality time with my Heavenly Father yet. I closed my eyes and praised Him. Immediately God's gentle love flowed into my heart, melting all anxiety away and providing rest for my exhausted soul. Jesus' love is so good. How could I forget to run to my Fortress when I was stressing out? Lord You are faithful, help me to refocus my life on You again.

My devotion times are getting shorter and less enjoyable; an alarm is going off in my spirit, telling me to be aware of what is happening, and to surrender my life to Jesus again. Lord, help me not to lose my way in this busy and fast-paced life style.

This reminds me of Impact's last leaders' retreat. We each got a military tag with a verse on it:

"No one serving as a soldier gets involved in civilian affairs--he wants to please his commanding officer" (2 Timothy2:4)

Yes Lord, as Your soldier, I will not get tangled up in the affairs of this world, I want to please You. I will only follow You Lord! Help me to fix my eyes on You!

"Passion for Jesus"

2007-11-04T22:34:00.000-08:00

Jesus, thank You for Your faithfulness, thank You for guiding me, thank You for teaching me the truths so that I'll not be lost even when I stray...Jesus, thank You for giving me strength when I'm frustrated and depressed. Jesus I love You, thank You for reminding me that, not only do I need to have intimacy with You, but that I also need to work for the sake of the gospel. Not only do I have an inheritance in You, but You have an inheritance in me as well. Because I love You, I will go out there and tell the nonbelievers about You. I'm going to make detailed plans and strategies on how to reach out to my friends and set weekly goals for myself because Jesus, You are a Saviour who wants none to perish, but all to be saved. Hallelujah!

"I love You, O LORD, my strength." (Psalms18:1)

Today Jeniffer shared about cultivating extravagant love for Jesus. I learned that it takes eternity to grasp God's love, and that we need to work hard to nurture a passionate love for God. But we need the knowledge of who God is to love Him. How can we love someone we don't even know? If we do not have full understanding of Jesus' personality, we will be subject to the enemy's lies and become incapable of having a loving relationship with our Saviour. Since God already made the first move by giving His all to us and making Himself fully available to us, it is our responsibility to reach out to Him. In the end, it all comes down to this: just how much intimacy do we want with Jesus?

Man, Jeniffer was so full of passion and her words were really speaking life to me, that I was jotting down notes like crazy. Jeniffer YOU ROCK! AWESOME JOB TODAY!!

Jack's topic was "Holy Spirit the Counselor", and he encouraged us to read Psalms 90 and 91. God's name is the Shepherd (Psalms 23), His rod protects us and His staff guides us. In John14: 15~16, Jesus promised to give believers the Counselor from God. Our Lord is a promise keeper, His faithfulness will never allow Him to take back His own promises. We can always call upon the name of the Lord, and He will answer our cry.

Last night Jack said that Sunday services are for saints; they equip the believers and give glory to God. Jesus, help me to never forget the purpose of going to church, and help me to love my church even more.

Ministry Meeting Update!

2007-11-03T00:28:00.000-07:00

Oh Lord, I had a dentist appointment this morning. After all that x-ray, the dentist told me that I was fine. It seemed like a miracle! I mean, I seriously can't remember the last time I got that remark from my dentist! But after a second check, he found a huge cavity hidden away at the very back. The dentist said that if we had been any more late, I would have had to have a root canal. "Man, why is this happening?! I thought everything was fine!" I thought as the dentist prepared to drill my poor tooth. Amazingly, Sarah didn't have any cavity after her check, while poor Amy got three cavities; she couldn't eat for a while afterwards. Lord, I promise that from now on, I'm gonna brush my teeth at least three times a day! This is going to be part of my new years' resolution: to be cavity-free at every dentist check-up.

An awesome thing happened today. There was a thick layer of fog this morning, so Mom turned on the headlights on our drive to see the dentist. When we arrived, we forgot to turn off the lights. So for the entire two hours or so, the lights were on. Miraculously, our car didn't run out of electricity until we got home. THANK YOU JESUS! It could've been so dangerous, I mean, we didn't even realize it while we drove home! Good thing our car didn't break down right in the middle of the road! GOD YOU ARE OUR PROTECTOR, THANK YOU!

At 7:30 that night, Tiffa and I went to join the ministry meeting at Jack's house (we needed information on the winter camp). It was so encouraging to listen to the cell group leaders talk about their victories and struggles in their ministry. Momo actually made an entire binder for WAVE, including their pictures, mission statement, self-evaluation, and record of what they did for each meeting. It was fantastic! Jack told them to challenge each other to take their cell groups to the next level.

Then it was Annie's turn to report what 7-11 has been up to and what areas we need to improve. 7-11's purpose is to inspire other girls to embrace their womanhood and find their positions in the kingdom of God. Annie had three words for 7-11: "Be sincere, savvy, and sophisticated." Since the members are all Christians, Annie's current goal is to mobilize us to start our own ministry and to reach out to new friends. Annie said that we need more one-on-one and strengthen our caring network. She also said that we need to start taking charge during these three months. I took so much notes and felt horrible for not knowing the purpose of my cell group and my leader's vision. 7-11 members! Let us rise up!

I learned so much from the meeting. For example, Jack told us that discipleship is the key to success in all areas of life, that it is something we do for our own benefit. There is going to be a new discipleship program available to all Impact members: people who sign -up will have to do weekly evaluations (i.e, how many people did they save this week) and Jack and Annie will be kicking their butts to discipline their walk with Jesus. Jack also told us that we'll become really encouraged when we give ourselves a number (i.e, save 5 souls a week).

When it was time to discuss the winter camp, Tiffa and I became really nervous. At the end of discussion, we felt like puppies that were expecting approval but got kicked instead. I mean, Tiffa and I had been dreaming for the camp, and we came up with all kinds of ideas--we had envisioned an intensive leader training camp. But Jack woke us up and made us realize how broad our vision was: the camp should focus only on one theme, we need to serve the campers' needs instead of "training" them, there will be only one major speaker (we had wanted some campers to come up and be supportive speakers), and we need to help the campers build good friendship with each other (rather than just focusing on individual campers' relationship with God). Though a little shaken, Tiffa and I realized the weaknesses in our original plan and were glad that we sort of have a guideline now.

Lord help us to be organized and take responsibility of this life You've given us, provide those who need jobs or clients, take the Thanksgiving Party and winter camps into Your hands, and give us the love and patience to do one-on-one with our friends for the sake of winning souls for You. Amen!

Yay Weekend!

2007-11-02T17:13:00.000-07:00

This morning I prayed to Jesus: Lord, You are worthy to be praised! Please help me love others as You do; I want to tell others about You out of love and not out of anything else. Give me boldness, faith, and strength. Jesus, thank You for Your love! Thank You for Your salvation! Thank You for Your goodness!

"How awesome is the Lord Most High, the great King over all the earth!" (Psalms47:2)

Then I started to study for bio, usually I wouldn't be able to concentrate, but this time, I prayed for Jesus' help before I started. Amazingly, half an hour later I found myself writing page after page of notes and actually learning the stuff! Thank You Jesus!

Unfortunately, the beautiful watch I got from GodChicks Conference died and I got to bio half an hour late.

At three in the afternoon, I ventured out to do another campus invasion. With my heart pounding, I approached a lady who was studying. I walked toward her, I saw her writing things down in a book, and to my horror, I kept on walking! I walked passed her and I thought to myself, "Alice, what are you doing?!"

For the next forty minutes or so, I wandered around the campus, "rejecting" every one of Holy Spirit's invitation to pray for that particular person. "Jesus, she's talking on the phone!" "No, she looks too busy" "There are too many people around her" "He looks too angry, smoking like he's trying to eat the cigarette; he might try to eat me too!" "Nah, she looks too happy" When I finally ran out of excuses, I simply said to God, "I don't wanna do this anymore!" And I ran back to my dorm.

I thought about how Jesus did His ministry; He didn't walk up to a person and said, "Hi, can I pray for you?" He simply said, "Follow me," and people dropped what they were doing and followed. He didn't look for a person who was alone, He went straight into the synagogue and preached in front of the crowd! He didn't timidly smiled and asked for permission, He just performed miracles and people flocked to Him! Lord, I want to be free from fear! Please help me!

Wow...it's Friday already, I really really need to stop procrastinating and start STUDYING! Midterms are next week! Jesus help!

Waiting Upon Him

2007-11-01T17:52:00.000-07:00

Oh Man I TOTALLY FAILED!!

I tried to donate blood today, but after the lady took a blood sample, she said that I was anemic; I had an iron count of 11.7mg/dL and apparently, you need 12.5mg/dL to donate. "Whatever, just let me donate!!" I thought to myself, but she sent me off with a professional smile and a list of "Good Sources Foods Rich in Iron".

Recently I haven't been doing too well academically; I missed FOUR lectures when school has only started for a month! I missed two psychology lectures because I overslept, one biology lecture, and one math lecture because I had to finish up my sociology paper. Bad Alice!

Anyways, time for some GOOD THINGS!!

So I went out to campus looking for strangers to pray for today. I prayed for a nice lady who happily accepted and turned out to be already a Christian. Then I approached a girl sitting alone by herself with a lap top.

"Hi, I'm just wondering, can I pray for you?"
She looked up at me, "What?"
"Um, can I pray for you?"
"You want to what? Pray for me? Why?"
"Because God loves you and wants to bless you," I said with a smile. Strangely, despite her attitude, I was very calm and filled with a sense of peace.
"Uh...I would rather you not, but if you have to pray for me, go right on ahead."She turned her gaze back to her laptop.
"Well, I'm Alice, what's your name?"
"Mimi"
"Ok, do you mind if I put my hand on your shoulder while we pray?"
"Sure."She was giving me a weird look.
"Dear Jesus, I thank You for Mimi, please let her know how much You love her, let her know what the purpose of life is, and pour down Your love and grace on her. Please bless her family and school work. In Your name we pray, Amen."
"Thanks that was really nice," Mimi said without any feelings.
Still wasn't satisfied, I asked her whether she knew Jesus or not. Then I told her that God loves her and sent His Son to die on the cross for her. By now, she was looking really uncomfortable.
"Uh...I don't know what to say to that,"She said to her laptop.
"Well, just know that God loves you," Then I walked away, feeling her glaring at me.

I felt so tired afterwards, but when I got back to my dorm, excitement hit me. I finally told the gospel to someone on this campus! And I prayed for her! YAY! Thank You Jesus, I am so encouraged now!

But that wasn't the highlight of the day.

Alone in my dorm, I decided to spend some quiet time with my Lord. Usually I would turn the music on, but not this time. I knelt down, and just quietly waited upon Him. A sense of peace and quiet joy rose from the bottom of my heart. My mind was finally able to stop its tiring wanderings, and my spirit can finally rest in Him. Jesus, You are so beautiful. Father I want to hear Your voice, see Your beauty, be overwhelmed by Your glory, and feel Your love. Jesus You are so glorious, Your glory will wash over the earth like the water over the seas.

When I looked up, 20 minutes had passed! Wow! I used to struggle to concentrate for just 5 minutes, but now, the gentle presence of God made time flew right by! Thank You Lord, only You can fill my heart, apart from You I have no good thing.

"Be still and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth." (Psalms46:10)

Jesus I Am Yours!

2007-10-31T21:33:00.000-07:00

Lord, I don't want to waste my energy rebelling against You like an immature brat anymore. Jesus, I choose You and not the world or my flesh. I feel tired because I'm still struggling between pleasing people and pleasing You. Jesus I'm letting go, I am going to run after You!

I flipped through my devotional journal the other day, and one part grabbed my attention:

"I must RUN in the opposite direction I'm going right now, or I will end up worse, with more spiritual strongholds in my life by the end of this year. I will not just deal with my anger issue, I will FLEE from it, I will not just try and barely keep up with devotion, I will THROW myself into His presence and ROOT myself in His Word, I will not just struggle to love my family, I will POUR down God's love lavishly on the people around me. In this walk with Christ, you either climb up or slide down. I will RUN to You Jesus! Father please help me!!" (journal entry on 7/9/2007)

Oh Jesus, I know that I cannot force myself to live a life of holiness, but it is the attitude of pursuing holiness that matters; only You can turn my sinful life around.

Today I did devotion whenever I got the chance to; in the morning, after eating, and when my roommate isn't here. Lord, I realized how important waiting upon You, spending quiet time before You is. It felt so wonderful to kneel down before the Lord of all lords and to surrender my weary spirit to You.

Jesus, I've been feeling depressed because of how "fat" I am. I constantly look in the mirror and complain. I took two hours changing to see what clothes I should wear tomorrow; none of them fit, I was too "fat". Lord, help me to move beyond this barrier. I've been considering starving myself to become skinny, but I know that will only lead to sin and destruction. God, I don't want to waste anymore time worrying about such shallow matters! Jesus help me.

Lord, every time I feel empty I would try different things to fill that void: going online, reading a book, or stuffing myself with food. But in the end only one thing has ever satisfied: coming before You and reaching out my arms to my loving Savior. Oh Jesus, my joy and delight, thank You for Your love, mercy, grace, and salvation! God open my eyes! I want to see Your beauty, to be fascinated by Your glory, to be blown away by Your presence!

Jesus, thank You for bringing me back every time I'm on the brink of falling. Lord I am forever Yours! Hallelujah to our God who reigns heaven and earth!

Our True Identity

2007-10-30T18:59:00.001-07:00

My identity is not based on my skills, my achievements, or what others and myself think of me. My identity is a beloved child of our heavenly Father. Only what the Father thinks of me matters. My Creator determines who I am.

(cool huh? I drew that with Microsoft Paint!! XD)

These days, Jesus has been teaching me what I should be thankful for. One day, I was counting all the blessings I have, "Lord, thank You for the roof over me, for the clothes I wear, the food I eat; thank You that I'm healthy, that I..." Then I heard Jesus say, "Clothes? Food? That's what you are thankful about? Celebrate and give thanks for the love and mercy and salvation that you received!" I was so blown away by His words. Yes! That's true! Clothes and all those things will not last, but the salvation I have will! I should rejoice daily for Jesus' abundant love and mercy! So I started to praise, and the joy of salvation washed over me.

"But God demonstrates His own love for us in this: while we were still sinners, Christ died for us." (Romans5: 8)

MONDAY JOKES ! ! !

2007-10-29T18:14:00.000-07:00

Here's a joke to start off your week!

One day, a girl named Alice woke up and found herself 5 minutes away from being late. Extremely exhausted, she decided to go back to sleep. Her roommate was already up and studying. A few minutes later, just as Alice was drifting off to sleep, she let out a fart so loud that she woke herself up and startled her roommate! An awkward silence followed as Alice pretended she was still asleep. When her roommate finally left, Alice jumped up from the bed, face red with embarrassment.

And that's how the Lord made sure Alice got to class on time and would never ever try to ditch class again.

Note: The above story has no relevance to the author of this blog nor does it reflect the views of this blog.

____________________________________________________________________

So I'm back at UCI again, the air had cleared up, and classes were in session (they never did cease anyways). I'm trying to take Annie's challenge to do devotion every morning and to take Jack's challenge to incorporate Provers 4: 23 in my conversations with friends. I realized that my devotions had a lot of Bible reading but lacked prayer, praise, and waiting upon Him. God, I want to be closer to You. I want to be crazy for You. I need to spend more time praying.

Jesus, I remember the time at Growing in the Prophetic Conference (when my devotional journal fell into the toilet and is now and forever baptized by IHOP's "holy" toilet water -_-"), when You showed me a glimpse of Your magnificent glory. Oh Jesus, right that second I was in awe at You. Oh You are so magnificent, so glorious, so loving and kind, oh You are worthy! Worthy of our worship! Jesus You are so glorious. Oh Lord, teach me how to pray constantly throughout the day. Lord, forever remind me that You are good and worthy of praise, that You are the magnificent obsession, the desire of the nations, and that my life is for You.

"Send forth Your light and Your truth, let them guide me; let them bring me to Your holy mountain, to the place where You dwell." (Psalms 43: 3)

Lord, what season am I in? Am I in the wilderness? The season of change? The season of training? Jesus, may Your light shine on me, I want to walk in the light of Your truth, in obedience to Your laws, in love, and in wisdom. Lord, no matter what season I'm in, let Your love burn in me. Lord I am Yours!

Another Week Passed

2007-10-28T20:37:00.000-07:00

Oh man, I slacked off so much this weekend. I didn't catch up or finish any of my reading for sociology, biology, and psychology! I've wasted my time on reading a novel! I need better time management.

Last night at 7-11, Jack said that we need a coordinator for this year's winter camp for new leaders. There are two camps this year: one for current leaders, and the other for future leaders. I was so excited about it! I really wanted to take the coordinator's position! But I was also afraid that my poor time management will not allow me to add yet another responsibility to carry; I feared that not only will my grades suffer, but I'll mess up the camp too!

But I also know that I want to serve and grow in my leadership abilities. If I don't step out in faith and take this chance, I will stay where I'm at. I don't want to wait for the next camp or until I have less things to do (I realize that'll be never). So at church I told Jack, "Um, can I be the coordinator for the winter camp?" Surprisingly, Jack immediately said, "Sure! The job is yours!" and walked off. Wow, I'm going to coordinate a camp!! I was beyond excitement!! Then I asked Tiffa to work with me, and she agreed. Now I have a partner! I have a little more than a month to pray and prepare for this camp, Lord help me!

Today Jack talked about God being our fortress and refuge. In Acts 18: 9, God said to Paul, who was in prison, "Do not be afraid, do not be silent, no one will harm you, because I have a lot of people in this town." The Lord is faithful and He will never turn away from us when we face failure or danger. Both Jeniffer and Jasmine shared today. I was so encouraged by Jeniffer's vision; I want to be that spark in someone else's life! Jasmine's poem (she really really need to make it into a song!), "Get into it", was totally awesome; her prayers during worship really touched me too. Annie told us, at the end of worship, that it is our season, to rise up, to know God,to wake up from our slumber, and to know God's purpose in our lives. We need to love our church because it is Christ's body.

Going to church is so important. Many people don't bother to, thinking, "Why should I go when I can just pray at home?" But church brings believers together and helps everyone know and love Jesus even more. I love Impact; it is the second best thing (being saved by Jesus is the best) that ever happened to me. I really can't imagine what kind of person and what kind of life I'll be living right now if I never went to Impact. Thank You Jesus!

"Then will I go to the altar of God, to God, my joy and my delight, I will praise You with the harp, O God, my God." (Psalms 43: 4)

A Tragic Event

2007-10-27T22:32:00.000-07:00

The wildfire situation still wasn't settled. At least 12 people died, and 2,000 homes were destroyed. I cried as I prayed for the victims; I can't imagine my house being burnt down and my family becoming refugees. This disaster drove me to pray for my campus and gave me a chance to share the love of God. It was amazing when I asked my roommate, whose family in SD was at risk of being evacuated, whether she would like to pray together, that she said yes. After we prayed, we hugged each other, feeling less like strangers to each other. In the end, her family didn't even have to evacuate, while thousands of people did. God is good. I called my friends at SD Bread of Life Church, and they said that though they did evacuate, most of them already returned to their homes. Hallelujah!

This devastating event made me anxious to pray and help those evacuees in every way possible. I teamed up with my RA to collect supply and money donations in the hall. As for me, I gave all the money, $100, that I had away. I struggled because I wanted to use that money to buy Christmas gifts for my beloved family (especially my Mom, I had wanted to buy her a nice coat) and friends. Yet the Lord gently reminded me that the people out there suffering, need the money more than my family need Christmas gifts. I also donated supplies like lotion and water bottles. It was really hard for me to give away my blankets, because my Mom bought those for me and I really treasured them. But again, those victims need the extra blankets more than I do. Jesus, I have always wanted to help people who were in need, I've told myself countless times, "If only I had millions of dollars, I would be able to help the orphaned, the starved, the tortured, and the needy". I finally got a chance to give and help those who are desperately in need. Thank You Jesus!

"I do not hide Your righteousness in my heart; I speak of Your faithfulness and salvation. I do not conceal Your love and Your truth from the great assembly." (Psalms 40:8)

7-11 Update!

2007-10-27T00:03:00.000-07:00

Tonight at cell group we talked about our week, discussed the Thanksgiving Party, and celebrated Kay's birthday. Annie encouraged us to to morning devotion everyday and Jack gave us a challenge: incorporate Proverbs 4:23 in your conversation with friends this week. Jack also told us that there are two e's in a cell group: evangelism and edification. What we do every Saturday night is edifying ourselves; we encourage each other and kindle the passion for Jesus. But we also need to reach out to others by evangelizing and spreading the gospel.

Hm, I haven't been doing so well on the latter; edification, devotion, going to church, and praying had all being nice and dandy, but it's been such as while since I last witnessed or talked about Jesus to nonbelievers. I did talk about Christianity with friends back in the beginning of this month. It was because a guy was standing in the middle of campus holding a gigantic sign that read: "Don't go to hell" I thanked God for such a good chance to talk about faith with nonbelievers, but in the end, I was so nervous, that I only asked about how they felt about the blunt demonstration and touched lightly on the possibility of heaven and hell's existence. I also said grace at meal times with my friends though they looked at me oddly. Once my hall mate saw me reading the Bible during midterms week and she exclaimed, "What? You still have time to read the Bible?" There was also that time when I mentioned in a hall gathering that my passion was about Christianity, yet I said it in such an awkward way, "Yea, I go to church, so I'm interested when people are talking about the Bible and Christianity" I had sounded anything but passionate about Jesus. Other than these lame and passive attempts, I've not being testifying about God's love and salvation.

I had walked around the campus a couple of times, praying and hoping to share the gospel. I saw people with crutches, with castes, and other injuries, yet I've always cowered at the last moment and allowed them to pass me by. Oh how many times have I felt terrible for not grabbing the chance! How many times have I prayed and vowed that I won't run away the next time! Lord have mercy and give Your servant boldness to reach out to those who aren't saved yet.

"I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is the power of God for the salvation of everyone who believes." (Romans 1:16)

Lord, let me be like Paul!

A Perfect Day

2007-10-26T11:12:00.000-07:00

Lord good morning :)

Last night I read a book, "A Perfect Day" by Richard Evans, about a man whose life was transformed because he thought he was dying. The book made me cried so many times. It made me feel horrible that I didn't cherish and love the people around me wholeheartedly. Life can end unexpectedly, and I don't want any regrets. I think the author is a Christian, because he said we need to have a good relationship with God; he wrote many other books that focused on inspiring and healing people. I think I found my favorite writer~~

After reading the book I wrote a letter to my Dad. Mom has told me to write to him ever since I got into college, but I never got to it. " We do not neglect others because we have ceased to love; rather we cease to love others because we have neglected them." (A Perfect Day, pg120) I was heartbroken when I read this, because in many ways I have neglected my family at Taiwan, including my Dad. Lord, thank You for bringing this book into my life at just the right time.

This morning I turned to read Psalms 39, and verses 4 and 5 stunned me: David said, "Show me, O LORD, my life's end and the number of my days; let me know how fleeting is my life. You have made my days a mere hand breadth; the span of my years is as nothing before You. Each man's life is but a breath."

Oh. My. LORD!! I just read a book about how fragile life is and the very next day the Lord confirmed again that I need to cherish every moment of life. WOW, this is so cool! Lord thank You for speaking to me so many times, in similar situations like this, through the Word!

Apart From You I Have No Good Thing

2007-10-25T20:42:00.000-07:00

Oh Lord, thank You for Your abundant love. Jesus I love You!

I was just looking back in my devotional journal and saw how You've blessed me and poured down Your grace upon me. Oh Jesus I love You. Please help me to focus on You and not wasting any more of my time and energy on doubting You.

Lord, I have no good apart from You. Jesus, I'm so blessed in Your loving arms that it makes me want to cry. God I'll push everything that distracts me from You aside. For Your love is better than wine, better than anything that this world has to offer! Lord I put my need for a job, my academic performance, and my future career plans into Your hands, Oh Jesus, I rely on You. I love You. "But I have stilled and quited my soul; like a weaned child with its mother, like a weaned child is my soul within me." (Psalms 131:2)

God in You I find true peace and satisfaction. Jesus I want to live the rest of my life hungering for You.

Your Love, O LORD, Reaches to the Heavens

2007-10-24T23:45:00.001-07:00

I love Microsoft Paint!!
"Your love,O LORD,reaches to the heavens,Your faithfulness to the skies." (Psalms 36:5)
God's love is so good.

Introduction

2007-10-24T22:15:00.000-07:00

Greetings everyone!

I'm so excited to start my new blog!(Though there are no guarantees that I'll keep up with it) I wasn't able to be consistent with xanga or facebook, but I think this time it'll work. Because I want to improve my writing skills by updating my diary daily, and I want to be able to look back and self-reflect.

Well, as the title suggested, I am a GodChick. What is that? Simple. It is a woman who loves and knows that she is loved by God. This blog will be a journal on my walk with my Savior, Jesus Christ.

That's about it for my intro, feel free to look around this site!