Yesterday afternoon I prayed before I went on campus invasion.
I saw a vision of myself tossing fistfuls of heart-shaped seeds into the soil here and there. Then gigantic trees, enormous flowers, and other exotic plants started to sprout from the ground with astonishing speed, turning the barren land into an abundant garden.
A garden of God's love.
I was so excited.
And so I left my dorm and walked towards the main campus. Before I even left the residential area I met my friend Mary.
"Hey Alice, going to class?" she asked
"No...um...just, taking a walk" I answered
So Mary decided to come along. I didn't have the courage to tell her I was on a mission to pray for strangers. She would think I'm a religious nut, a freak! I thought to myself.
We went to Starbucks, got drinks, then went on a walk at Mesa Court (a really nice residential place with lots of artsy stuff, picnic areas, etc.)
Wait, what are you doing Alice? You're suppose to do campus invasion!...Never mind, then at least use this time to share your testimony with Mary!
But in the end, after all the internal struggle, I didn't share anything about Jesus or how He changed my life to Mary.
Afterwards, exhausted and frustrated, I sat down in my room and remembered what Jaeson Ma said during the Supernatural On Campus Conference:
"The Lord gave me the words, 'Killed In Action'. He killed my reputation, pride, and desire to be respected by Christians on that campus...We have no reputation when we go out to evangelize, we are fools for God's kingdom!"
Lord please forgive my pride, once again I forgot that I was supposed to carry my cross and follow You at all costs (even if it meant having Mary think I'm weird or being rejected by strangers)
God! Love means giving without holding back! Jesus Your love was so strong that no amount of suffering could stop You! Lord please help me to love like You do!
I have got to realize that it is normal and expected to be persecuted and hated by all men if I were to share the gospel. I'm not even hated and already I'm scared. Jesus You loved, You healed, You taught, You saved, You gave Your all! God help me to follow You to the end, help me to be bold in loving Your people and telling them about Your Son, Jesus Christ.
"I will search for the lost and bring back the strays. I will bind up the injured and strengthen the weak..." (Ezekiel 34: 16)
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Lord I pray that Your enpower Alice at all time. Let her heart be broken for what breaks Yours. Show her what Your heart is for UC Irvine! No compromise! Amen. Love You Jesus.
Alice! Tues night I was just thinking about how I haven't done any city/campus invasion for a while now, but then tomorrow noon I'm hanging out with Julia + Tiffany (choir pplz from high shcool) for lunch, and then the Ride Aid girl, Carmen, for dinner.
We must live a healthy lifestyle consist of the Great Commandment and the Great Commission, empowered by the Holy Spirit and God's love.
Guess what? You got the power!! xD
Ps. remember the 9pm daily prayer for family!! :)
Love ya,
Sala<3
Oh Alice! Aww. Lord, I just pray that pour down on Alice the heart of boldness. Take control of her body so that whenever she sees a lost soul through Your eyes, she will have the heart to move toward that soul and take it home to You. Jesus, we praise Your name whenever and forever! We thank You for Alice. She is a princess in Your Kingdom. Just pour down the blessings onto her. Let her not hold back to Your desires! In Jesus' name, AMEN! n______n
yes. we should continue to do that. i need to practice praying aloud to people. so i can get a hang of it and soon, not studder. thank you for calling last night! n_n <3jasmine.
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