A Lesson For A Control Freak

Ha ha! I am BACK! I haven't blogged for almost TWO months, bad Alice.

But God is good (changing the subject), and here's what's been going on:

The Lord has been shaping me, renewing me, and teaching me. He taught me that I had been self-centered in the past, always praying for what I want and not what He wants.

I want to be mature, I want to love more, I want to have the strength to go on, I want to be more diligent, I want to be closer to You, I want to feel Your love, I want to ace that midterm, I want my Dad to be saved...

Me, me, me, me, me, it was all about my desires. I was unwilling to listen to God, unwilling to let Him be the Lord in my life. I mean praying about those things are good, but my prayers lacked a very important thing: listening to Jesus. I wanted to control my own life instead of letting God take control.

The Lord reminded me to once again pray for His guidance, for His will, for His plans for me and to listen to Him.

I have sort of treated Jesus like a genie, whom I can pray to for my wishes to come true. It's time to stop all that nonsense and to let Jesus be the Lord in my life again.

Father what do You want to do in my life this year? What do you want to do in my school? What do you want me to do in Impact, in seven eleven?

Thank You Jesus, for being such a good leader of air-head followers like me! God You are good! You are always GOOD!

"If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there Your hand will guide me. You right hand will hold me fast." (Psalms139: 9~10)