Learning To Let Go

Jesus gave me a big lollipop.

It was swirly, sparkling pink, shiny, and perfect.

I was soaking in His presence during Sunday worship, and I saw Jesus, with lots of light behind Him, handing me this sweet gift.

I felt Him saying to me, "I love you so much, you are my beloved treasure, and I want to lavish you with gifts" Oh Jesus thank You! You are not a stingy God, You are a Heavenly Father who loves without holding back and pours down good things upon Your children. My heart was so moved by His love, so blown away by His grace; tears started falling down my cheeks (great, I'm crying again, Lord when will you let me experience holy laughter? ;p)

Ever since I got prophesied by the kids at Bethel Church, I've been experiencing God's love and affections for me on a new level. I realized that God doesn't just love us, He cherishes us, and He doesn't just give us the things we need, He also gives us gifts to make us happy!...God wants me to be happy? No way! I thought He just wants me to suffer, to learn from persecutions, and to receive occasional peace. That is not true, our God loves us and wants to fill our hearts with joy. Praise You Jesus!

I also learned at Bethel Church to let God take control. Funny, I thought I've always let God take control: "God I put my biology test into Your hands...please let me get no lower than a B!", "God I give this day to You...here's a list of things I want You to do for me!", "God I give today's 7-11 meeting to You...please show up during worship, prayer, and oh, help me with my sharing!" But the Lord gently showed me that I've only trusted Him with my words and not my heart or actions.

So I let God take control during 7-11 meeting, I let God do whatever He wants with me during Sunday worship, I let Jesus tell me what to do this Monday morning, and I gave Jesus full lordship over my heart and my life.

On Monday morning, I asked God, "Lord what do You want me to do today?". "Pray for ten people and tell them I love them" He said. So I obeyed and His love and joy filled me. In the afternoon, I found out that my friend Cindy lost her room key somewhere on her way back from the bookstore. So I prayed and went to look for it with her. Amazingly, I found in on the ground on Ring Road where hundreds of students were walking around! It was really fortunate that no one picked it up or stepped on it and damaged it! I was shouting hallelujah and we jumped up and down in joy. Cindy told me that she was praying too when we were looking for the key. During lunch, I shared with her how God returned Bill's lost knife to him, and other miracles and divine healings at Redding.

Cool things happen when we step aside and let God take over. I also realized that by giving God full control, I can see visions and hear God's voice much easier now.

Jesus, I'm all Yours!