Last night was so scary.
I went to bed at 12, happy to finally get to bed early, and drifted off to sleep. At 3:30am I woke up, went to the restroom, and tried to get back to sleep. Strangely, I became really paranoid and kept thinking that ghost heads will appear at my bedside. I was so scared, my roommate wasn't home, so I turned on the lights. The fear didn't go away. After nearly two horrible hours of tossing and turning, I fell asleep, only to experience one of the worst nightmares I've ever had. I can't recall most of the dream, only that I was being tortured by this girl and being completely terrified. At the end, I found myself struggling to get out of a lake, there was something evil in the lake. I had to get out! At the same time I was trying to wake up, but I couldn't! I could physically feel my limbs going numb as I struggled in the dream. I was so scared! So horrified! So helpless! The girl was laughing at me and saying, "Alice, don't you just hate spiritual warfare?" I was screaming in my head. Finally I woke up, feeling nauseated and dizzy. Oh Lord, why didn't I ask for Your help?
That morning after class, I immediately came back to do devotion. Jesus removed my fear and filled me with peace. "You, O LORD, keep my lamp burning. My God turns my darkness into light" (Psalms 18:28) I just memorized that verse the day before, why couldn't I remember it last night? Every time I face fear, I would panic and all my faith, trust, and strength would dissolve, leaving me lost. Jesus please help me, train me to run to You whenever I'm in trouble! Something really cool happened during devotion. The portion I was going to read today was Psalms 56, and it talked about trusting God when confronted by fear!
"When I am afraid, I will trust in You. In God, whose word I praise, in God I trust; I will not be afraid..." (v.3~4)
Amen! God You are so good! Once again I'll surrender every part of my life to You. Jesus reign in me, guide me, and teach me the way that I should go.
4 comments:
oh man. that is frightening. v_V hahaha when i first read your comment, i burst out laughing. xD yea. it is true. i am taking nutrition. hahaha. anyways. didn't u read my blog a bit carefully? i had something that you talked about in there.
man oh man. that psalm verse was beautiful. i felt my heart melt. xD
<3jasmine
you wana know something funny? just to prepare for those frightening spiritual warfare moments, i would practice over and over again in commanding the spirit to flee in Jesus' Name. Literally I just practice saying, "IN JESUS' NAME, GET OUT RIGHT NOW!!" But, i learned from some pastor that when you are commanding the evil spirit to leave in Jesus' Name, remember to give it a clear destination to go to, or it's gonna come back again. So what I practiced saying is... "IN JESUS' NAME, I COMMAND YOU TO LEAVE THIS PLACE AND GO TO THE PLACE THAT JESUS TELLS YOU TO GO TO RIGHT NOW!!!" LOL... i hope when i really see something evil in front of me i would remember how i say it in my practices... xD
wow...that's intense! it's strange...but i always see a girl sleeping right next to me...is that a spiritual warfare or? man...then i finally realize it is my wife...scary huh?
In Jesus name...>.<
HOly cow! I was reading the comment previous to mine, and almost had my hair raised by the creepyness...then I realised it was Jack's infamous bit about his lady xD lolz.
Anyhow, I get nightmares about spiritual warefare too! In my dreams I totally lose my cool and simply scream JESUS JESUS heelp mee! like some big pansy..and I dunno if it's my a.d.d. brain but then the dream usually goes back to normal mode, as nuttin happened. Halleluiah!Ah, God literally is the Hero of our dreams, aye?
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